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KeyoatCyodee
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"Sneezing like TFZZZzzfff!"
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Favourites: 12106; Deviations: 90; Watchers: 98
Watching: 200; Pageviews: 20865; Comments Made: 6524; Friends: 200
# Comments
Comments: 858
Pftt just copy and paste it to the right person now ^^
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no... I'm done... I'm shaky and I can't take it... just go... My life is full of the same four walls and I'm ready for it to just come over to me and lay e down to take a nice long quiet happy break... I just want peace so go
Pretend I'm dead because it's how I feel
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go away! You aren't my friend okay? You don't know me and I can't even tell you who I actually am SO PLEASE just go! You're only going to hurt yourself...
Just stay away.
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Sigh...fine.
But I'm still gonna try and help you though. But I'll let you be now.
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I don't need or want your help... I am done with you now go like I told you to! You're not needed here and you have much better things to do!
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thank you... but please just forget me now
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unwatch me
I'm about to cry but thank you... I'll think of you fondly because you were a great friend
For me please
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No. That's the only thing I WONT DO
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please... I won't be the same from now on... i don't want you to see me in any way shape or form
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You'll always be the same to me
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no... please just go... I need you to
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I'll leave you...
but I won't unwatch you
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please do because I cannot take it.. all I do is disappoint people and get them upset... I don't want to do that to you anymore and don't say I don't because I know I do I can tell
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The only thing that disappoints me...is that you think you hurt others when you don't
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I know I do! I always do!!! But nobody admits it to me and all it does it kill me! Even if it doesn't even hurt you much, the fact I hurt you or even the thought of hurting anyone kills me, especially when you won't tell me.
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Fine then.
Yoru hurting me.
Does that make you feel better...
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no... because you wont leave me... just leave... you don't even need me and i'm not going to draw for a long time... And we all know literature is not my strong suit so please... GO
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Just unwatch me please... don't drag me around I'm worn out and done... nothing left
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Fine....it's done,
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thank you... but can you do one more thing?
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what did you mean you agreed
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I ment I agreed...with your point of view at the time we were talking in notes
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ah.. okay... Well, I don't think it even matters anymore... if it get any worse then I know they'll just make an army and I'd just get so stressed and depressed that I'd just give up... I didn't think of PH at all while making that character and only until I hit the submit button did I think once of her.. I knew she might've said something but I was just hoping it wasn't going to be that way... But even her sis has accused me now... even after PH already did and even after we already we talking about it... I feel so... Just kill me not my heart alone please :c
I've been crying for at least 2 hours now... I couldn't handle anything more... I cried so much I think I split a stitch in my gums because I started to taste blood.. look... If I have to leave then I want you to know you're a great and amazing person
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.......yikes...
your an amazing person too buddy.....and a true friend.
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I just hope if it ever gets really bad you won't join a crusade for my defamation :c...
I wish you the best... Soon I will be getting this little thing 
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I hate to disturb this "depressing" conversation, but I was only saying he looked similar to my character. If I was mad at you, I would have posted a journal and built an army within a blink of an eye. I'm sorry that I came at you like a kamikaze but after a few other incidences of people literally stealing my character designs and stuff, I'm very stricken when I see a character that looks like mine. If you want to cry and roll on the side of your bed and a good friend is TRYING their hardest to help you, you then have every right to be a loner. You have no right to push away a person who is trying to help you. And :devinightshade-warroir: is a good kid, and she is doing all she can to help you. I know this is all a miss understanding, but crying about it??? I think that is poo-talk. Now you are deleting everything on your account and trying to push away people who are trying to be nice to you AND blaming your father and neighbors for your actions?! I'm sorry......but I think that is shit.
Push me away, but I'm not going to move. You are my friend, and I don't pity friends, I HELP them.
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Look, I could tell you all the 'shit' I want and you wouldn't get it... and you don't know how it feels for me in my body in my skin in my mind, my life isn't yours so you could never exactly understand me... And fine I admit it: I did fucking cry okay? It wasn't just about the stupid misunderstanding but about all the damn misunderstandings... I can't go a month without having another and I cannot communicate with others. I'm not a social person and I'm terrified of things people do, and getting up joining parties and having any bit of fun but then I go home and regret it until I loathe myself once again. And I know she is a good kid but that's why I don't want her here with me, I don't want her to see me until I can get my life and my shit together okay? I told her to leave me but I didn't leave her. If she ever needed me I'd talk to her but I don't want her wasting her time on me. And it might sound cold but I'm not sure you were ever my friend. There have been so many people in my life to say their my friend and many I never even saw before. So if anything you're an acquaintance at the most because I've never seen or felt any clues to suggest otherwise... I know what it feels like to have someone be you're friend and that's exactly why I'm cleaning up my DA stuff and making it seem barren so I can go out and have a real life with my best friend I haven't seen in almost a year before I move down to VA and probably never see her again. And I'm not mad, it's just called anxiety or maybe a sort of depression, it's a mental illness and many people in my family have anxiety issues so it's not surprising I would get anxious at such 'little' things...
Ps: I never asked for pity I was just hoping maybe someone else on this planet could feel a little sympathy or even better: Empathy.
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"I just wanted to let you know that if you're ever feeling down and trapped in a dark place, just remember: troubles in life give you tunnel vision. It makes it so you can't see all the opportunities you have to make your life better. Things like depression and stress can make it so all you see is them in their entirety. I want you to remember that there's always some end to your issues, no matter how black it seems"... that is a quote from my favorite artist.
Instead of crying about your "mental problems" or whatever, look to the good side. I don't want to read shit about you saying negative things. I'm tired of getting a mouth full of it, it doesn't grow on me... If you want to be negative, then do it! But if you sit down for a while and think "Why I don't have many friends?" Your answer is standing right behind you like a wall. You have good friends, and if I ain't one of them...it is better to be closer to your enemy! You pick what folder I am in!
PS: Guess what??? You have to go through Hell to get to Heaven!
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Nice quote but I get that..
And I'm not crying about my mental illness (because it really is one! It's caused by imbalances or lacks of chemicals or neural connections in your brain), I'm crying because of it. Which is why I take Zoloft. I'm so sorry for saying negative things around you but I was pretty sure you weren't watching anyway and didn't care... I mean... I barely ever hear from you. But I don't wonder why I don't have so many friends and I just said 1 of the reason why but here is another, Maybe I don't want a crowd of people round me... not many anxious people ever do... And there is a such thing as an acquaintance.. Not exactly a friend nor enemy because things aren't always so black and white... in fact most of people's minds/ heads are filled with 'grey matter'...
But tell me if I'm wrong, you're more of an extrovert aren't you? Because you compared to me have a lot more confidence and honestly never seem to quite give a fuck but I on the other hand, only seem to not give a fuck because I couldn't dare look any stranger in the eye and think of saying even a single word because I know it won't matter anyway. Another reason for a non existent group of careless friends
PS: Just like shit getting worse before they can get better??? I already know that
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Maybe I am an "extrovert" or an "out going human". Or I could be a "closed book" or "anti-social". It depends on who looks at it. But how you look at me, I can see what you mean based off you're own knowledge. But what if another person was to look at me? They may beg to differ with your answer. The point is you look at one thing and stick to it like glue...you look at what you don't have: in this case; being social.
Instead of crying about what the other person has that you don't, look at what you have. You just pointed out that I'm very "extrovert". Now I'm going to point out that you are very "talented in drawing". Now the conversation will soon change because of my comment saying "you are very talented in drawing". Because of your "negativity" you will say "no I'm not! Their are others that can do better than me!" But if you said that to me, because of my "extrovert personality" I will probably say "Thank you! You are very kind!" Do you see what I'm pointing at?
PS: Say what I just wrote to you again, then think about each word.
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I don't just think of one possibility of things, I think of many, but I choose only to voice one, and of course based off of my own knowledge.. I cannot judge something or use it to judge something if it isn't there for me to. It is silly telling me these things when I've said many times before psychology is one of the many things I really enjoy. And I don't reject kind comments because of negativity and I know people are better than me at art but I don't cry about that. What I do is I abhor the fact that every time someone meets me that is the only thing they notice about me at first.. and I always reject there comments because if I accepted them then why would I strive to get better? I don't cry because I'm not as good as others, I don't cry for that, I strive to be the others and I hate what I am NOT what I am not. I've seen your point many times and I don't quite know how to respond other than try to how you mine. You have me figured out wrong. Nearly everyone does... Perhaps you're only letting yourself see me in the way you do because it's what you've seen most and it's most logical... But I like different logic
PS: I always red and re-read and rethink every single word and every single space in between with every single denotation and connotation, I might miss something but I'm not perfect nor do I want to be.
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Or perhaps I'm looking at you with the other side of my brain. I'm dyslexic, so unlike most people I use my brain in a different way. So you can say I fit in the "crowd", the black and white modern day crowd doing whatever. But if you look at me, I'm not black and white, in white and black. So tell me that I'm like the "others", I'm going to beg to differ. Same with your answer "You have me figured out wrong." "WHY" Do you ask? Because I look at you differently than other people. I have an opinion about you, and my opinion is my opinion. So tell me again "You have me figured out wrong." And I will give you my answer. I don't just look at a book and guess what the story is, I READ it, to find out what the story is about.
PS: so why did you give me that answer you previous gave? Each word has a job, like an instrument in a band. Once each instrument works together, it creates music!
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Yes, and I'm not like other people either because every single person has a different brain but right now mine is really really hurting and my eyes too. Along with my stitches and honestly my chest too... But That's not anything I can do... JUST PLEASE you talk so much of reading and rereading and words acting like instruments making music... perhaps they're a symphony... But from your response I KNOW you haven't just read my words the ways I just read them and that will happen because every one is different.. but how will I ever get anyone to see my point of view then if every time I fail! How am I supposed to get anyone to understand me when I cannot express what I need to... I can't with writing, with spoken words, with art.. There isn't anything I can do to communicate with anyone and it tires me out drags me out like roadkill!!! And I'm not mad... I'm frustrated and I can't communicate and I just can't say anything right to anyone for whoever's sake!
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Have you ever heard of the lady by the name of "Helen Keller"? Well she couldn't communicate to anyone, she only could pull or push to show what she wanted and didn't want. Until the lady by the name of "Anne Sullivan" came to the rescue! Anne Sullivan took her time to help poor Helen Keller. She taught her how to speak and to communicate with others!
I know you may not have what Helen Keller had, but communication takes time to develop. I had a hard time once too, but I had help. Soon, just maybe one day a person may walk up to you and help you like Anne Sullivan did with Helen Keller. You may be still pulling a sleeve and pointing at something, but someone will understand what you want.
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Well I fucking doubt that... why do you care so much? You act like you don't but then you do, why?
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I bet that was the same words Helen Keller 's mother thought before she realized her child could say "I am not dumb." ...Would you like me to walk away? Or talk to a person who can communicate with you? But your second question, I can't answer.
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The only person whose proven they can communicate with me without fail, is the friend I only have a few more months or even weeks to see. The same one I'm going to take a break from here for. Because my mom is going to loose her job soon and I'm going to move down to VA where I'll help me Papi with his farm and go back to public school. I will be miles and miles away from her.. It takes 7 hours to drive down to that part of VA and I doubt she'd want to travel down on train so often because she already does that for someone else. Sorry if I'm being difficult right now, but as you can now see my problems just keep adding up now don't they?
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I think you over think things. You put more on your back than what is really needed. You keep grabbing at unimportant things and giving them an unnecessary label. Just because you are away from a friend, doesn't mean you well never see him or her again. And if you are going to a new school, you may find new friends. Don't be a negative pain, let people go up to you and talk to you or the other way around. If the person doesn't want to be the friend, it is cool, their are others. Don't think about the bad things, look to the good things. Don't compare others with people you know (that only makes it worse).
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I'm not thinking negatively, I just know that in only a few years we will both be off to college and on with our lives, neither of us will have enough time for much of anything anymore, and people change over the years (I know from my one friend I used to hang out with a lot) so I want t see her as much as possible before I can't. And I don't compare people to old friends, I've already said that I understand everyone is different. And when I do go back to public school I'll worry more about remember the school's layout and where each class is than I will making friends with others. All my friends before have been because they came to me or a friend introduced me to them. I'm worried about my Papi too though. Because a farm is his life dream and in his condition he will need all the help he can get with the farm, and I will help him. But my aunt (his daughter) made him a bit depressed when she told him to be more realistic. I want him to have his dream of having a farm and I'll help him with it but I also will have school to deal with.
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Play one game at a time. First school, a good education then whatever you want next.
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Well I can't really... It's not that I'm choosing to do all of them all at once
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i thank you very much for kindly faving my art vwv
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this is one freaky ID picture! i like it : D
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thanks and no problem ^^
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