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Published: 2023-03-13 13:24:15 +0000 UTC; Views: 1099; Favourites: 10; Downloads: 0
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When I first drew this piece in 2018 I was struggling a lot with guilt over my mental illness. I had a lot of conflicting feels in me and I was constantly criticizing myself- comparing myself to people who harmed me and never giving myself benefit of the doubt.I wanted to be myself and feel what I felt, but for some reason I'd convinced myself that being happy meant being a bad person.
I really screwed myself over with that mindset, and abandoning all my bad habits made me lose a lot of what I thought was my identity- and it made me lose a lot of my creative spark. Sometimes I wonder if all my creativity just came from pain and depression, but I don't wanna think that's true. I think I just need to find a better muse, and looking at how far I've come makes me feel a lot more confident. Not just in my skill, but in myself as a person too.
I've come a long way since then. Honestly? Pretty proud of myself, and definitely relieved. I don't feel guilty for how I felt anymore, just how I handled it.
2023 version:
www.deviantart.com/badrexus/arβ¦
