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Pleeeeeease don't pop....Unfortunately depression has reared it's ugly head for me again... [Where I first opened up about tough times]
And it's come with it's sister, anxiety.
Anxiety is the smaller, meaner one, where as depression is the more manipulative. Depression makes you think she's your friend, then pushes a knife into your hand and whispers to hurt yourself. Anxiety punches you in the chest while shouting in your ear about all the times you fucked up. It's an unpleasant duo.
I try and not listen to either, but it's hard.
I'm really glad I opened up and told my story with mental health, but it's actually it's still quite hard for me to talk about online. I really don't want to sound like I'm moaning or throwing a pity party. I have many wonderful blessings in this life which I am so grateful for, but I do also have a mental health condition which sometimes makes life horribly difficult.
I also know there are thousands of people who struggle like I do, and I know just opening up about my experience can help.
So I don't want to be quiet about it. Sorry if it comes off as moaning, but I truly believe this is an issue worth opening up about
It's a struggle at the moment, and drawing helps me deal
Thanks for all the kindness shown towards me, it is comforting to know how many people understand x
Hope the painting itself is kind of self explanatory... but I'd love to hear your opinions and interpretations on it's meaning
Just opened my print shop up for Christmas: destinyblue.storenvy.com/ with free shipping all December
Peace, Love and Red Balloons,
Blue xx
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I just hit the "Random Deviation"-Button and so I got here...excuse me if my english is just horrible, I haven't spoken it for months. And excuse me if my mobile phone exchanges the words for german ones.
To me, the balloons seem to represent some kind of friends. Or better, some kind of friendships. The friends don't realize what danger their in. They still smile. They're still around you. But somehow, they don't see the pain you're in.
I'm sorry but for me, depression is something different. For me, she shows up different. She's a pretender, that's right. But when you start to feel bad she hugs you until you nearly suffocate and tells you that you can't do anything about it. Nothing's gonna change. Nobody likes you...she pretends to care but eventually, she squeezes you to death because everytime you're sad, she grows bigger.
Anxiety works the same way - she pretends she's necessary and wants to protect you but in the end, as seen in the picture, she's an obstacle (just like the spikes) you cannot overwhelm easily.
Anxiety is the older sister of fear who might be useful. Some fears are necessary, as well as disgust is. But our society provoked various forms of fear and disgust that don't even make sense - why do we fear spiders? They're smaller than we are and most of them aren't poisonous. Just because they have more legs than we have? That's unnecessary but essential for the development of (social) anxieties.
Well, I hope you're gonna read this because so many people commented your beautiful, expressive vent-art-like picture.
"It gets better."
(Rise Against)
I'm glad to here that talking / writing helps, I'll try that next.
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You speak better English than me and English is the only language I know
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You are such an amazing artist, I LOVE your work! Are these paper drawings? If so, what kind of camera do you use to take the picture?
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I can just see your personality oozing out of your artwork--the hidden pain that comes from within, the desperate grasp of sanity that we all strive for. I've had social anxiety for nearly nine years now, and even went through a serious spout of depression. It's so difficult to live with... it's like anxiety is something that traps your mind and depression is another voice in your head that convinces you to do horrible things, even justifies it. It's so nice to see a talented artist that knows what it's like and can express it in a way people can understand.
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I feel like this all the time. I was diagnosed with (GAD) Generalized Anxiety Disorder. Everywhere I go I feel like trouble, accidents, and danger are at every corner; just ready to pounce at every given moment.
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Your artwork is absolutely stunning and you captured what anxiety is like perfectly! This is beautiful!
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Your artwork has been featured here:
arjaysking.deviantart.com/jour…
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I think the girl in this picture looks a little like the girl from Thorn. It may just be me though.
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I'm still amazed about how hard I can relate to your drawings. I love them because they are all piece after piece like little diamonds, that show stories that most people are afraid to tell. So also thanks to give other people like me a way to show how they feel and what they hide by showing (and buying) your drawings <3
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Am I the only one who came here from TheFandomMenace?
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"Fear Might Be the death of me, Fear leads to anxiety, Don't Know what's inside of me..."
-Twenty one pilots
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This literally puts what anxiety can be like into a picture, your so talented.
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I've struggled with anxiety since I was in elementary school and then in middle school, depression decided to pop up. Anxiety if probably the toughest thing I've ever went through. Even simple things are scary. And the worst part is when people act like it's nothing and tell me that I'm being silly. The words I hate to hear most is, "Don't worry about it." because I know that I am incapable of doing so.
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You've captured the feeling exactly. It is just like that. All balanced on a fine thread. And everything is all ready to 'pop' at any moment.
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This is exactly how social anxiety feels for me. It's amazing how well you have captured a feeling and expressed it through a visual art.
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Wow, I really love your style. It gives me so much inspiration! Keep up the good work!
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i struggle with both myself and this really speaks to me no on e realizes how bad anxiety etc is unless u have it
for people with no experience or knowledge on it it seems that they find it something rediculous like fighting phantoms that u can just "get over"
Whenever someone says get over it i get the urge to sock them to show them how it feels for me and then say "get over it XD"
anyways i'm rambling but i think u captured the aspect of anxiety really well and i hope u are doing better with your struggle i know its not easy but no one wins by surrendering right?
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This is pretty much how I feel every day. My dad gives me flak for this because I'm not being able to relax.
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I really like the art. But, I'm going to sound stupid here: I don't really see the meaning...
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Its about having anxiety and not being able to relax.
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But what do the spikes and the balloons mean?
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The balloons represent people and how she's afraid if they get too close they'll pop, or start yelling at them and hate them.
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Well a spike would easily pop a balloon. Hope that helps =^^=
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Ahh, I think I get it now. Thanks.
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don't worry , if there are many spikes , the balloon can't pop ! unless it's just one , then it's screwed
lovely painting btw
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Dear DestinyBlue,
I have always loved your art from the moment I saw the first image years ago. But you still never fail to impress. You are spectacular and (unreasonably!) talented; you really show through in your drawings. Everything you draw feels so personal, so relatable, so applicable to everyone's lives. It's no secret that all go through hardships, and you have been so open about your troubles. It makes your already intriguing pictures even better. It's all so true, raw, and real. It truly is beautiful.
Your titles along with your descriptions explaining every project is also very insightful and gives everyone more background to the picture, as well as to your history. Everything you present is so amazing, brave, and commendable, I can't stop praising you. I can't find the words to really express your uniqueness. You don't just draw, you express yourself more than most can (or are willing to).
You pose the hard questions and ask the viewer to do the same, to self-reflect. I really appreciate art that tells a story and speaks to the heart. You have touched the lives of countless I am sure, and many more to come. Never stop being you and revealing your personality to the world, because I know you have a huge impact on so many people around the world. I wish you happiness and good health. You reflect wonderful morals and unbelievable creativity and deserve only the very best.
I know you've suffered a lot: went through the tough times and the rough. But I also know you will not give in. You won't lie down, give up, or rest. I encourage you to continue til the end. You are very intelligent, so I believe you realize that nothing is too much when you have great friends, family, community, music, and art. You are unstoppable, I hope you know that.
If you ever were interested (or if you already were aware), try researching mood and anxiety disorders. I recently learned more about them; it's all very interesting and informal. For instance, take the biopsycosocial approach from psychology. Another term is nature(vs/-)nurture (it can be versus but I feel it separates the two, nature and nurture, which is completely connected and interwoven into everyone. The biology aspect of life/emotions/depression is that you may be just genetically predisposed and/or have abnormalities in brain structure/function (genes and neurotransmitters). The other part include the social-cognitive perspective, which focuses on your mindset interacting with your environment. Therefore, always remember that your perceptions, attitude, and expectations all affect your moods, just as the people you associate with can build you up or break you down.
I'm certain you can understand that you should communicate with individuals and participate in engaging hobbies who/that have a positive impact on you - Deviantart is a perfect example of both. Just keep being awesome and create amazing works that you can be proud of (they definitely would make me proud!). I hope you could take something away from this long message, even if it's to realize you had one more fan all this time. 
Love (?), or Sincerely,
Poptropica12
*P.S.- I forgot to mention, but you can also look for support groups, therapy, medicine, etc. to help you. Not all works for everyone, but don't be afraid to try new things. It'd be great if something helps, right?
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I feel always like that when i'm with people and ma family....
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whether it counts as whining and moaning or not, you have every right and reason to express it. be true to yourself. and thankyou. thankyou so much for opening up about it. because you're absolutely right, it does help. I know it helps me. and I certainly feel it will help others I know who go through the same thing.
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I like this. all your emotional art have so much unspoken words! <3
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well said, sister, well said
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Wow. This is really powerful. Fighting back tears.
This gave me an image of a balloon being pushed up against a spike, and trying really hard not to pop. Sometimes that's exactly how I feel being in a relationship with someone who suffers from anxiety. Like I'm walking on eggshells. Like the smallest criticism has devastating effects on their mental well-being. This makes it hard to even communicate our emotional needs, never-mind actually figuring out what to do to satisfy those needs, which puts a huge amount of pressure on the relationship. We're both trying to make each other happy, but the illness just gets in the way no matter how good the intentions.
And it's so sad because at the end of the day, all he wants is a hug and to be close.
Just know this: I won't give up on him. He's doing his best to dull his spikes, and I'm made of more than just some thin rubber. And I'm sure that there are people who will do the same for you. Don't ever give up! You can get through this! You're way too important to give up
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I have to agree with your comment, it does have just so much emotion in it. As for the rest of your comment, I don't know who he is but he is so very lucky to have a friend like you. My friend, we learned suddenly that her dad is just about to die and thus we broke up so she can have some space to think. (she did it, not me. I wanted to help her stay happy) And now she has popped and won't talk to me. And I probably need to see a shrink. But I can tell you from personal experience, having a friend that will sit and listen means the world. So thank you, not for me, but for whoever you are helping.
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Thank you for taking the time to say this. Knowing that someone else knows my struggle, and appreciates what I am doing is very encouraging. I hope you can find peace with your friend.
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No problem, was the least I could do, and thank you.
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I have it too...it makes life a nightmare
I worry about being the first person to take a freaking donut for Celestia's sake.
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Ugh I have really bad anxiety, I always worry everyday before I go to school if someone I care about is going to die in a car accident, so I purposely almost miss the bus for school so I can be with my family a little longer. I also constantly worry about my bf being taken from me by another person one day. I express this to him, and he says it won't happen, but that doesn't mean I don't worry.
Sorry if I bothered you or something, you art piece appealed to me and I just needed to say something. Sorry if I'm weird. Q_o
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I really love your work, it is absolutely flawless. I love the colours and the textures.
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