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Some vent art.

This pregnancy has been hard. Physically, it’s been great. Mentally, it’s been a challenge. If it wasn’t for the beautiful and unconditional love of my partner I don’t know how I would have made it through.

I’ll start by saying there’s many things I’m happy for. Im so happy to meet the daughter I created with the love of my life. Im so excited to be a mom. Im so lucky for the partner I have. Im so lucky that my baby is healthy.

There’s so many things I have to be grateful for, and I am. It’s just now that it’s all over I’m faced to accept that I missed out on so much during my first pregnancy. I missed out on being with my family, on a baby shower, on setting up a nursery, on caring for myself how I wanted to. So many things. Now, I’m scheduled for a c-section in less than 48 hours.

I had so many hopes for this pregnancy, perhaps more than I even realized. At bare minimum I expected peace, family, and to care for myself through everything. I envisioned a baby shower with my loved ones, setting up a nursery with my partner, even having a natural birth. So many things that I didn’t even realize I longed for…

It’s hard experiencing something that’s so beautiful, special, and life changing while being bogged down by outside experiences. I wanted and envisioned so much more for my first pregnancy. I missed out on a lot, and now that I’m due I’m reminded even more of all that is different than I hoped. I’ve told myself over and over that it’s okay, the things I hoped for or expected didn’t matter. It’s only now that it’s finally coming to an end that I’m allowing myself to grieve the parts of this pregnancy that I lost. It’s not fair. I’m allowing myself to mourn.

Despite everything, though, I still have much to look forward to. My baby is healthy, and we get to meet her so soon. Im grateful for my partner. I’m so excited to be a mom. We’ll be okay.

Featured:

6961 WS Life on Mars

+9 Fullbody
+2 Full Shading
+2 Lucky Horseshoe
+3 Promise Rings
+2 Olive Branch [6961]
+2 Olive Branch [7757]
= 20 XP

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+ 200 LH
= 200 coins

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7757 WS High Speed Low Drag

+9 Fullbody
+2 Full Shading
+3 Promise Rings
+2 Olive Branch [6961]
+2 Olive Branch [7757]
= 18 XP

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extras
pose refs used: pin.it/6f5BDVo
proof of Fullbody for 7757: sta.sh/215jar29w3l6?edit=1

Description

Some vent art.

This pregnancy has been hard. Physically, it’s been great. Mentally, it’s been a challenge. If it wasn’t for the beautiful and unconditional love of my partner I don’t know how I would have made it through.

I’ll start by saying there’s many things I’m happy for. Im so happy to meet the daughter I created with the love of my life. Im so excited to be a mom. Im so lucky for the partner I have. Im so lucky that my baby is healthy.

There’s so many things I have to be grateful for, and I am. It’s just now that it’s all over I’m faced to accept that I missed out on so much during my first pregnancy. I missed out on being with my family, on a baby shower, on setting up a nursery, on caring for myself how I wanted to. So many things. Now, I’m scheduled for a c-section in less than 48 hours.

I had so many hopes for this pregnancy, perhaps more than I even realized. At bare minimum I expected peace, family, and to care for myself through everything. I envisioned a baby shower with my loved ones, setting up a nursery with my partner, even having a natural birth. So many things that I didn’t even realize I longed for…

It’s hard experiencing something that’s so beautiful, special, and life changing while being bogged down by outside experiences. I wanted and envisioned so much more for my first pregnancy. I missed out on a lot, and now that I’m due I’m reminded even more of all that is different than I hoped. I’ve told myself over and over that it’s okay, the things I hoped for or expected didn’t matter. It’s only now that it’s finally coming to an end that I’m allowing myself to grieve the parts of this pregnancy that I lost. It’s not fair. I’m allowing myself to mourn.

Despite everything, though, I still have much to look forward to. My baby is healthy, and we get to meet her so soon. Im grateful for my partner. I’m so excited to be a mom. We’ll be okay.

Featured:

6961 WS Life on Mars

+9 Fullbody
+2 Full Shading
+2 Lucky Horseshoe
+3 Promise Rings
+2 Olive Branch [6961]
+2 Olive Branch [7757]
= 20 XP

--------

+ 200 LH
= 200 coins

--------

7757 WS High Speed Low Drag

+9 Fullbody
+2 Full Shading
+3 Promise Rings
+2 Olive Branch [6961]
+2 Olive Branch [7757]
= 18 XP

--------

extras
pose refs used: pin.it/6f5BDVo
proof of Fullbody for 7757: sta.sh/215jar29w3l6?edit=1