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Published: 2015-11-03 20:00:10 +0000 UTC; Views: 80746; Favourites: 5582; Downloads: 0
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Tumblr | Instagram | FacebookThis is a little personal this time (also I decided to try the daily sketches again but uh...I'm already behind...
). I'm not feeling too well emotionally these days. Mentally, i know that I'm really pretty lucky that I don't have cancer or whatnot, and that it's just a heart valve replacement....but it's hard not to feel bitter and frustrated from time to time knowing that I have to get my blood tested 2 times a week (less as time goes on but...) take a blood thinning medication for the rest of my life, and I have to watch what I eat cause I can't intake vitamin K inconsistently since it might create blood clots and can be dangerous. having a kid in the future will be hard for me... I'm not even sure if it'll be safe for me to get my ears re-pierced cause if my blood is infected it'll be really dangerous for my heart D;.Plus two weeks before my surgery started I breaking out in hives, and I can't even see the allergist because I'm taking too many meds right now...they get on my face and I'm not good enough putting on makeup to cover it so it looks ridiculously red and patchy ;___;. Makes it really hard going outside. As if the heart disease and surgery wasn't enough haha...
Anyways, sorry, I just feel a little brittle these days and my mood can plummet pretty fast from time to time. Apparently there are psyche doctors that I'll have access to for post-surgery soon so hopefully I'll feel better soon.
Sorry for this, I just needed to get it out cause I'm with my mom all of the time and she's not the best at comforting ppl xD;; (plus she gets all quiet and I feel guilty for worrying her even more...I think she's blaming herself a bit cause this is a condition I was born with; of course, that's ridiculous tho but yeah... I can't really rant to her u__u;; )
If you made it this far, thanks and here's a cookie
^^. Thanks for putting up with me guys.Related content
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This is super deep and heart-breaking and yet so beautiful at the same time!
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I hope the best for you It must be really hard, just keep doing what you love and one day it will all be over. I'm just saying stick it out and you will make it and I hope you do get better.
Good Luck and I hope you get better soon.
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I hope and pray that your health and mental wellbeing has improved since you posted this.
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This speaks to me after my dad died. Very well done!
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you are going through so much right now. and yes you can look at it this way... that it's not cancer or whatever cause you dont want to play victim... but you are allowed to feel sorrow and be sad in your predicament. you are going through struggles just as other people are. you're problems are just as valid as anothers problems. we never have the same life as everyone else. you need support just as anyone else, and i'm sorry you probably dont know many people that can relate.
I have a disease that could have crippled me had i not had back surgery, twice. I try not to let it be my crutch, but sometimes I have to accept that I have limits. I still deal with residual problems daily. <3 I think you are trying hard to have a healthy outlook but let yourself mourn your ailments (accepting what is) for a bit and I hope that you know you are cared for and important. Qinni
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Aahh noo!!! Her heart's breaking!!! Someone quickly fix itt!!!!
Who has the sticky tape.......!!!!
Xxx
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Thanks to YOU for putting up with us. All the best wishes to you
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Great piece of art!
I've read your description and I wish you all luck in the world uwu
I don't have any disease but if it comforts you: as soon as I saw this drawing I could relate to it because a few years ago my brother passed away in a car accident and I had the feeling of falling apart. Luckily I could count on my friends, they were always there to me. Hopefully yours are the same ^^ And if you want to, you can always write me :3 (and sorry if my english is a bit confusing >.>)
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thanks for the cookie... Things may look bad now, but these are trials that were made for you because you can accomplish hard things
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Sometimes, it rains so hard that rivers flow over their banks. They don't break, they become bigger than themselves and take in all the raging waters the sky offers. Sometimes things get destroyed or changed along the way. But the river will always return to its banks. Maybe not the way it was originally, but it will continue to flow just the same. And sometimes the destruction gives way to fertile soil dropped in fields the river couldn't have even known existed beyond its banks.
Be like the river. Take it in, and let it go. For better or for worse, you can't carry it with you.
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I love you draw your lineart sketch ,its very clean and nice
Stay strong!
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You are incredible for coming this far <3 Keep strong and know we are here to help and support when needed C: <33 Your art is ever so beautiful as well so hang in there <33
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Hang in there! That sounds really awful I hope you feel better soon
You're a strong person being able to cope with all that while still creating such beautiful pieces. good luck~
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Your art is amazing!
I'm not the best at comforting, either, but I still wish you the best and hope you feel better soon!
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/noms the cookie
and gives Qinni all the love and hugs in the world
we're all here for you girl! thank you for gracing the world with your beautiful art and concepts.
hang in there babe... it's been so tough on you.
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I'm really sorry, that's hard. I hope you feel better.. I can imagine.
There is hope, and things can get easier. It's okay to rant/express how you feel.
We're here for you whenever, to make you feel better.
I really love your art, It's beautiful.
I can feel the emotions in every one of 'em.
Keep it up.
And Thank You for sharing your art with us.
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I hope you start feeling better, your art is inspirational. <3
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This is an amazing and very emotional drawing <'3
I hope you're going to feel better soon!
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Hey this piece is very amazing. I am having family troubles atm. This image pretty much expresses the current problems it's having with me. I am praying that you also get better even though your life right now seems like its hanging by a thread and that single thread seems like your future seems set and painted in certain in depressing grey. But your are also very gifted and your work really touches my heart. So in a way your heart in your artwork definitely affects the hearts of other people.
That's a rare gift for an artist.
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Hey. You are amazing. Lesser people have cracked and given up under better circumstances. I'm so glad you've continued to draw and post art with everything you've gone through. Your work is beautiful, and I love it.
Keep your head up. You're going to make it.
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Gorgeous work as always Qinni 
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Hope everything will be fine with you!
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*pats you* It's always okay to be not okay every once in a while. If you feel like ranting, do it, if you feel like arting it, do it! Every little things helps so it's understandable.
Anyway, the art's amazing, as always. Keep it up man
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hey, thanks for this fictional cookie! But maybe it's you who need a cookie for all of this? I want to say thank you for making us dream and all with your amazing drawings. I feel it's quite strange to say things related to your condition since I didn't commented a lot of your drawings, I didn't say a thing for years now! But it may be good for you to know that as we are loving and watching your drawing as they come to our deviationBox... we care somehow. That may be a little drop in a lake of comments. You have the right to say what you say, so please don't say sorry and don't feel guilty!
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Can I say that I absolutely love the fact that most, if not all, of your moleskin uploads are blue-themed, which is my favourite colour, which really makes me want to hit the favourite button a thousand times just to show how much I am enjoying your artwork. Keep it coming!
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We will always stand by you Qinni, please don't give up. Yes, you are lucky, but you are going through something that would be difficult for anyone, I hope we can be your strength. Please feel free to talk about this, cuz there are so many of here supporting you. Never stop making art!!
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