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At times, I wonder, maybe I can take an order or make a YCH? And then I realize that it's not. Even for a simple sketch, it can take me a week, a sketch that just shows the head. Something remains unfinished for a long time, and all because I do not like the way I do it. I see that there are not enough skills here, but no matter how much I try, don’t waste my energy, I can’t understand these skills (chiaroscuro, perspective, anatomy, etc.)
Maybe it's all just in my head. I have lived in this state for too long. All this is depressing. I don't know what life is, true happiness. I have never been a happy person, a child. I always heard only negative things about myself, despite all the good things that I did.
Even my blog doesn't help me with my thoughts.
I think I'll leave. Everything that I draw, I will post on other sites. If I draw and post.
I'm just tired. Tired of existing.

p.s. This post is also about just thoughts and doesn't have to be answered. Just to be here and if anyone was interested, they would like to know about it.

Description
At times, I wonder, maybe I can take an order or make a YCH? And then I realize that it's not. Even for a simple sketch, it can take me a week, a sketch that just shows the head. Something remains unfinished for a long time, and all because I do not like the way I do it. I see that there are not enough skills here, but no matter how much I try, don’t waste my energy, I can’t understand these skills (chiaroscuro, perspective, anatomy, etc.)
Maybe it's all just in my head. I have lived in this state for too long. All this is depressing. I don't know what life is, true happiness. I have never been a happy person, a child. I always heard only negative things about myself, despite all the good things that I did.
Even my blog doesn't help me with my thoughts.
I think I'll leave. Everything that I draw, I will post on other sites. If I draw and post.
I'm just tired. Tired of existing.

p.s. This post is also about just thoughts and doesn't have to be answered. Just to be here and if anyone was interested, they would like to know about it.