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Dec. 2015

Mason South pulled into the driveway of his younger brother, TJ Miller. He was tired from all the events of the night before, but he felt he needed to tell TJ what had happened. He wasn't sure if TJ would care about what he was about to tell him, but he thought he should know anyway. It was a family issue, afterall.

TJ stepped out of his garage, having heard Mason pull up. "Hey...you're here early."

"Buck tried to kill himself last night." Mason said, cutting to the chase.

TJ looked surprised. "What? Why? What did he do?"

"He locked himself in the garage with the truck running...thankfully I'm a light sleeper, and I heard it." Mason said.

"Well now I feel kinda bad about everything I said." TJ said.

"It wasn't you...Buck's always been very troubled. This isn't the first time he's tried it, or so he's told me." Mason said. "I think it's mostly being raped, and Natasha leaving him."

"That's where it always gets me...I start to feel bad for him, but then when I think about how shitty he's been to her, it's just gone." TJ said. "I mean, what does he expect?"

"He didn't have the kind of life you had, Teej." Mason said. "When you were adopted, he was left behind at the orphanage, and no one ever adopted him. No one wanted to be his friend at school because he was an orphan, and he was bullied a lot because of it. The one time someone wanted to adopt him, they dropped him back off at the orphanage because he was 'too much for them', and the one time he did find a friend, he had to move away. All he's ever known is rejection and loneliness, and it's made him bitter towards people, and if he does get close, he's terrified of losing them, and he loses it if he thinks they're gonna leave him."

TJ paused, feeling ashamed. "I had no idea...I figured he got adopted too, later on."

"No, never...he pretty much feels like he's worth nothing at this point, from all the rejection he's dealt with." Mason said. "I think that's another reason why he acts the way he does, he doesn't feel like he needs to better himself, because he isn't worth it."

"Well now I feel bad." TJ admitted. "Me rejecting him too, saying he'll never be family, I'm sure that didn't help at all."

"I really don't think his suicide attempt had anything to do with you." Mason said. "I think it's mostly her leaving him. That's what he keeps talking about."

"So where is he now?" TJ asked.

"I put him in a mental hospital...I feel bad, but it's where he needs to be." Mason said. "I was gonna go check on him after I was done telling you."

"Could I come with you?" TJ asked. "I think we have some things we need to smooth over."

"Sure...I'm sure he'd appreciate having more people visit him." Mason said. "I don't think he's in any mood to fight either."

The brothers were silent as they headed towards their destination, TJ being lost in his thoughts. He'd known from a young age, since his parents had told him that he was adopted, that he'd had a twin brother. So the story went, his parents planned on adopting both babies, but it was too expensive, so they were forced to leave one behind. TJ was lucky to have several photos of he and his twin together, which his parents had taken while they were still bonding with the children in the orphanage. Growing up, he always wondered about his twin brother and what kind of life he had, but he always assumed that his twin had been adopted too. The truth was definitely unlike anything he'd assumed. He truly couldn't imagine growing up like that. He felt lucky and grateful that his parents, a middle class Christian couple, had adopted him and raised him with love and luxury. He'd grown up with a large extended family as well, grandparents, aunts and uncles doting on him, and lots of cousins to play with. Buckley had had none of that, no parental figures, no siblings, not even a friend. TJ had never been very popular in school, but he'd been inseperable from his best friend, Rusty, since kindergarten, and that was truly all he needed. He tried to imagine what life would've been like without his family, and without Rusty, but he truly couldn't. How could he have navigated all the bumps of growing up without a mom to sit him on her lap and reassure him? A dad to clap him on the back and tell him how to be tough in every situation? A grandmother to pinch his cheeks and make him cookies? A best friend to listen to his problems? He had no idea how, and it became very clear why Buckley was the way he was. He had to raise himself, more or less, so how would he know anything about how to cope with life, or treat others? The impact of growing up that way had to affect someone deeply, and the fact Buckley had reunited with his family a few years ago wouldn't be enough to erase it.

When Mason finally arrived at the mental hospital, TJ wasn't sure what to expect. He'd been in a place like this once, after stabbing himself during a bad bipolar spell, but he'd been so drugged up and out of his mind that he didn't remember much of the incident. Mason, however, didn't go inside the building, he went out back, to a garden, where he apparently saw Buckley sitting. TJ noticed that Buckley's belt and jewelry were missing, and that he looked ill. Perhaps it was from the exhaust fumes.

"Hey..." Mason said, as he approached his brother. "How are you?"

"Okay, I guess." Buckley said, his voice flat and emotionless. "It's better than prison."

Mason laughed. "Well, I think most anywhere is."

TJ tentatively approached his brother. "Hey...I just wanna say I'm sorry for being such a dick. If I'd known you felt like this, I wouldn'tve said all that."

"I didn't do this because of you...it was just everything..." Buckley said.

"I know, but Mason told me what your life was like, and I wouldn't want to add anything onto that..." TJ said. He sat down next to his brother on the bench.

"It seemed like you meant it." Buckley said, though not accusingly.

"Well, I thought I was just dealing with a regular asshole..." TJ said.

"Well, I am, so..." Buckley said, shrugging.

"Well, you haven't been very pleasant to deal with, but I can understand why you're like that." TJ said.

"So you don't hate me?" Buckley asked, looking at him.

"I don't know you well enough to hate you." TJ said. "But I do know we've gotten off on a bad start, and...I'd like to start over."

Unexpectedly, Buckley began to sob.

TJ raised his eyebrow. "Is that a good or bad reaction?"

Buckley sniffled. "I just...I'm really grateful you...want to fix things..."

"Well, like I said, we're brothers, we're stuck with each other, we might as well try to be friends." TJ said with a smile.

"I'm really proud of you, Teej. That's a good thing for you to do." Mason said, putting his arm around his brother.

"Well, I don't wanna be a dick...and after everything that's happened, I just don't think being like that is worth it anymore." TJ said.

Insert ending cuz those are (_Y_)

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So ya it's all...well the story explains it yo. But yeah, Buck and TJ actually hated each other at first. Buck was a giga douche in the beginning, and he made no effort to get along with TJ, and of course all Buck's drama with OH BEATS NATASHA didn't help XD. But this is obviously their turning point. But then last year when Buck got beaten by that random guy was when they fully restored their twin bond, and now they're all OH I FEEL HIS PAIN, CRIES WHEN HE CRIES. Well mostly Buck cuz that hag cries at everything. Like half the pics I've drawn of him, he's crying in it XDD

And ya I know the bench looks a bit gaggt but it's a tube and I had to enlarge it over 100% so it'd fit, so it's a little blurry. And ya I could've just drawn it myself but that's too much work and effort yo.

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Dec. 2015

Mason South pulled into the driveway of his younger brother, TJ Miller. He was tired from all the events of the night before, but he felt he needed to tell TJ what had happened. He wasn't sure if TJ would care about what he was about to tell him, but he thought he should know anyway. It was a family issue, afterall.

TJ stepped out of his garage, having heard Mason pull up. "Hey...you're here early."

"Buck tried to kill himself last night." Mason said, cutting to the chase.

TJ looked surprised. "What? Why? What did he do?"

"He locked himself in the garage with the truck running...thankfully I'm a light sleeper, and I heard it." Mason said.

"Well now I feel kinda bad about everything I said." TJ said.

"It wasn't you...Buck's always been very troubled. This isn't the first time he's tried it, or so he's told me." Mason said. "I think it's mostly being raped, and Natasha leaving him."

"That's where it always gets me...I start to feel bad for him, but then when I think about how shitty he's been to her, it's just gone." TJ said. "I mean, what does he expect?"

"He didn't have the kind of life you had, Teej." Mason said. "When you were adopted, he was left behind at the orphanage, and no one ever adopted him. No one wanted to be his friend at school because he was an orphan, and he was bullied a lot because of it. The one time someone wanted to adopt him, they dropped him back off at the orphanage because he was 'too much for them', and the one time he did find a friend, he had to move away. All he's ever known is rejection and loneliness, and it's made him bitter towards people, and if he does get close, he's terrified of losing them, and he loses it if he thinks they're gonna leave him."

TJ paused, feeling ashamed. "I had no idea...I figured he got adopted too, later on."

"No, never...he pretty much feels like he's worth nothing at this point, from all the rejection he's dealt with." Mason said. "I think that's another reason why he acts the way he does, he doesn't feel like he needs to better himself, because he isn't worth it."

"Well now I feel bad." TJ admitted. "Me rejecting him too, saying he'll never be family, I'm sure that didn't help at all."

"I really don't think his suicide attempt had anything to do with you." Mason said. "I think it's mostly her leaving him. That's what he keeps talking about."

"So where is he now?" TJ asked.

"I put him in a mental hospital...I feel bad, but it's where he needs to be." Mason said. "I was gonna go check on him after I was done telling you."

"Could I come with you?" TJ asked. "I think we have some things we need to smooth over."

"Sure...I'm sure he'd appreciate having more people visit him." Mason said. "I don't think he's in any mood to fight either."

The brothers were silent as they headed towards their destination, TJ being lost in his thoughts. He'd known from a young age, since his parents had told him that he was adopted, that he'd had a twin brother. So the story went, his parents planned on adopting both babies, but it was too expensive, so they were forced to leave one behind. TJ was lucky to have several photos of he and his twin together, which his parents had taken while they were still bonding with the children in the orphanage. Growing up, he always wondered about his twin brother and what kind of life he had, but he always assumed that his twin had been adopted too. The truth was definitely unlike anything he'd assumed. He truly couldn't imagine growing up like that. He felt lucky and grateful that his parents, a middle class Christian couple, had adopted him and raised him with love and luxury. He'd grown up with a large extended family as well, grandparents, aunts and uncles doting on him, and lots of cousins to play with. Buckley had had none of that, no parental figures, no siblings, not even a friend. TJ had never been very popular in school, but he'd been inseperable from his best friend, Rusty, since kindergarten, and that was truly all he needed. He tried to imagine what life would've been like without his family, and without Rusty, but he truly couldn't. How could he have navigated all the bumps of growing up without a mom to sit him on her lap and reassure him? A dad to clap him on the back and tell him how to be tough in every situation? A grandmother to pinch his cheeks and make him cookies? A best friend to listen to his problems? He had no idea how, and it became very clear why Buckley was the way he was. He had to raise himself, more or less, so how would he know anything about how to cope with life, or treat others? The impact of growing up that way had to affect someone deeply, and the fact Buckley had reunited with his family a few years ago wouldn't be enough to erase it.

When Mason finally arrived at the mental hospital, TJ wasn't sure what to expect. He'd been in a place like this once, after stabbing himself during a bad bipolar spell, but he'd been so drugged up and out of his mind that he didn't remember much of the incident. Mason, however, didn't go inside the building, he went out back, to a garden, where he apparently saw Buckley sitting. TJ noticed that Buckley's belt and jewelry were missing, and that he looked ill. Perhaps it was from the exhaust fumes.

"Hey..." Mason said, as he approached his brother. "How are you?"

"Okay, I guess." Buckley said, his voice flat and emotionless. "It's better than prison."

Mason laughed. "Well, I think most anywhere is."

TJ tentatively approached his brother. "Hey...I just wanna say I'm sorry for being such a dick. If I'd known you felt like this, I wouldn'tve said all that."

"I didn't do this because of you...it was just everything..." Buckley said.

"I know, but Mason told me what your life was like, and I wouldn't want to add anything onto that..." TJ said. He sat down next to his brother on the bench.

"It seemed like you meant it." Buckley said, though not accusingly.

"Well, I thought I was just dealing with a regular asshole..." TJ said.

"Well, I am, so..." Buckley said, shrugging.

"Well, you haven't been very pleasant to deal with, but I can understand why you're like that." TJ said.

"So you don't hate me?" Buckley asked, looking at him.

"I don't know you well enough to hate you." TJ said. "But I do know we've gotten off on a bad start, and...I'd like to start over."

Unexpectedly, Buckley began to sob.

TJ raised his eyebrow. "Is that a good or bad reaction?"

Buckley sniffled. "I just...I'm really grateful you...want to fix things..."

"Well, like I said, we're brothers, we're stuck with each other, we might as well try to be friends." TJ said with a smile.

"I'm really proud of you, Teej. That's a good thing for you to do." Mason said, putting his arm around his brother.

"Well, I don't wanna be a dick...and after everything that's happened, I just don't think being like that is worth it anymore." TJ said.

Insert ending cuz those are (_Y_)

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So ya it's all...well the story explains it yo. But yeah, Buck and TJ actually hated each other at first. Buck was a giga douche in the beginning, and he made no effort to get along with TJ, and of course all Buck's drama with OH BEATS NATASHA didn't help XD. But this is obviously their turning point. But then last year when Buck got beaten by that random guy was when they fully restored their twin bond, and now they're all OH I FEEL HIS PAIN, CRIES WHEN HE CRIES. Well mostly Buck cuz that hag cries at everything. Like half the pics I've drawn of him, he's crying in it XDD

And ya I know the bench looks a bit gaggt but it's a tube and I had to enlarge it over 100% so it'd fit, so it's a little blurry. And ya I could've just drawn it myself but that's too much work and effort yo.