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Why Am I So Scared

I had once taken this guy into my home out of false (compensational) pity. He was homeless after being kicked out by his girlfriend. He had LSD for breakfast, dinner and lunch. He slept in my basement. I offered to cook for him so we had dinner together in the evenings. One evening I went for a walk after dinner. I sat down at a waterfall. After a while the waterfall started to talk to me. I didn't know that that was the LSD he had put in my food. Then suddenly I felt a black shadow standing behind me. I might even have looked back to see if there was some thing or person really there, standing just behind me, but I can't remember. I was instantly terrified. It was as if the whole world had suddenly been covered by some black veil. The talking waterfall started to bother me and I got up and started walking, followed closely by that black shadow. I passed a house with a big metal dog kennel with two fierce bouviers in it. Whenever someone passed the house they would jump forward and start barking like crazy. Now they were crawling on the ground at the far end of the kennel, trying to find a way out through the metal bars, squealing as if struck by the fear of death (but without the "as if", since animals don't know about "as if" - they acted as if they really felt that something or someone had come to kill them).

I continued to walk on, turned onto a path along the railroad and after that my memory is blank. I can vaguely recall at one point standing in a phone booth in the dark, calling my former religion teacher from high school out of bed at 6 AM to tell him that I had seen God. He mentioned that years later and we had a good laugh about it.

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Why Am I So Scared

I had once taken this guy into my home out of false (compensational) pity. He was homeless after being kicked out by his girlfriend. He had LSD for breakfast, dinner and lunch. He slept in my basement. I offered to cook for him so we had dinner together in the evenings. One evening I went for a walk after dinner. I sat down at a waterfall. After a while the waterfall started to talk to me. I didn't know that that was the LSD he had put in my food. Then suddenly I felt a black shadow standing behind me. I might even have looked back to see if there was some thing or person really there, standing just behind me, but I can't remember. I was instantly terrified. It was as if the whole world had suddenly been covered by some black veil. The talking waterfall started to bother me and I got up and started walking, followed closely by that black shadow. I passed a house with a big metal dog kennel with two fierce bouviers in it. Whenever someone passed the house they would jump forward and start barking like crazy. Now they were crawling on the ground at the far end of the kennel, trying to find a way out through the metal bars, squealing as if struck by the fear of death (but without the "as if", since animals don't know about "as if" - they acted as if they really felt that something or someone had come to kill them).

I continued to walk on, turned onto a path along the railroad and after that my memory is blank. I can vaguely recall at one point standing in a phone booth in the dark, calling my former religion teacher from high school out of bed at 6 AM to tell him that I had seen God. He mentioned that years later and we had a good laugh about it.