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Description
Rain
Pain flits just behind closed eyelids
I can never let you see, what you've done to me
Opened eyes show you're burning me up, from the inside out
Made a home in my heart then shattered it
Lying there, it's broken like a mirror
Reflecting parts of you, but never
The whole.
Would you please stay?
Help me build it back up again,
Along with my trust in you.
But you had hidden intentions,
Evil lurks in your core, but
Blinded by love and sudden happiness
I couldn't see it,
Or maybe I just
Didn't want to.
You are my drug, almost literally
Mirroring amphetamines
Happy with you, so bad without
As soon as you stepped back I was lost again
Hopelessly damned to my own mind,
What I've been seeing isn't always real.
This agony of confusion,
Banished only by your presence
I was young but I truly loved you and,
Everything you could do to me
I thought you loved me too, but your love was
Twisted, selfish.
Rejected, I lost myself in the sea of my own memories
Wandered through trees that weren't always there
Talked to friends that never existed.
I was helpless
At my own mind's mercy.
I thought you were my knight in shining armor, but
Your dagger was never destined for the dragon's heart
My name is carved in the blade
I watched you stab me full on in the face,
Over and over
But I was powerless to stop you
I care too damn much.
Being with you is killing me
But I can't leave you either.
I'll come back, and come back
I'm addicted to you,
In the worst possible way.
You wrote your name in my own blood
And walked away.
Left me lying in the dust.
But I can only wait for you to come pick me up again
I don't know anything else anymore
Time is only
With you or without you.
I think I'm done with you now.
My friends are real,
The forests are gone.
The fog's not lifted yet,
And maybe
It never will be.
But at least now I am fully alive.
I'm broken I'm beaten
I'm battered and bruised
But I'm not hopeless anymore
And I'm not yours.
You still haunt my dreams, or rather,
My nightmares.
Face twisted, wearing my heart on a chain
Grasping for me, saying it will be different now.
Even more terrifying are the dreams
Where we're back to how it was, and I still think you love me
You stroke my arms, but your hands are
Razorblades, cutting deep
My last thought
I love you Raine,
Blood drips down my fingers
And I jolt awake
Glad I'm still alive after all you've done.

Description
Rain
Pain flits just behind closed eyelids
I can never let you see, what you've done to me
Opened eyes show you're burning me up, from the inside out
Made a home in my heart then shattered it
Lying there, it's broken like a mirror
Reflecting parts of you, but never
The whole.
Would you please stay?
Help me build it back up again,
Along with my trust in you.
But you had hidden intentions,
Evil lurks in your core, but
Blinded by love and sudden happiness
I couldn't see it,
Or maybe I just
Didn't want to.
You are my drug, almost literally
Mirroring amphetamines
Happy with you, so bad without
As soon as you stepped back I was lost again
Hopelessly damned to my own mind,
What I've been seeing isn't always real.
This agony of confusion,
Banished only by your presence
I was young but I truly loved you and,
Everything you could do to me
I thought you loved me too, but your love was
Twisted, selfish.
Rejected, I lost myself in the sea of my own memories
Wandered through trees that weren't always there
Talked to friends that never existed.
I was helpless
At my own mind's mercy.
I thought you were my knight in shining armor, but
Your dagger was never destined for the dragon's heart
My name is carved in the blade
I watched you stab me full on in the face,
Over and over
But I was powerless to stop you
I care too damn much.
Being with you is killing me
But I can't leave you either.
I'll come back, and come back
I'm addicted to you,
In the worst possible way.
You wrote your name in my own blood
And walked away.
Left me lying in the dust.
But I can only wait for you to come pick me up again
I don't know anything else anymore
Time is only
With you or without you.
I think I'm done with you now.
My friends are real,
The forests are gone.
The fog's not lifted yet,
And maybe
It never will be.
But at least now I am fully alive.
I'm broken I'm beaten
I'm battered and bruised
But I'm not hopeless anymore
And I'm not yours.
You still haunt my dreams, or rather,
My nightmares.
Face twisted, wearing my heart on a chain
Grasping for me, saying it will be different now.
Even more terrifying are the dreams
Where we're back to how it was, and I still think you love me
You stroke my arms, but your hands are
Razorblades, cutting deep
My last thought
I love you Raine,
Blood drips down my fingers
And I jolt awake
Glad I'm still alive after all you've done.