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....All that left is loneliness..
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"She was crying....her tears touched the pillow...with her right hand she was holding pieces of papers...then with her right hand open she made stop the tears touch her pillow and all letters on her bed....the papers on her right hand was from one of that letters.....she wanted make in pieces all letters but couldn´t help cry when she started with the first one.....then covering his head with the blanket.....under the blanket.....she touch the letters with the left hand remembering that one who had sent them all to her....while she was crying in her bed alone.....she was listening some old vinyls.....she hated that songs.....she never liked the songs.....she hated him.....but he was dead.....was the end of 70's.....she felt so empty....and regret.....she wished never received that letters....that vinyls....accepted his presence...she never loved him back.....and even if once she liked the way he always tried be so sweet with her.....she started hated all about him....and after he died she just hated him much more....cause all his words seemed superficial....she was so frustrated and disappointed with herself.....with life...
In the corner of the bedroom......he watched all her pain without be able to do anything for her.......he was dead.....but what he meet beyond his life.....wasn't god...but an angel.....was her......at first he was happy for see her again......he didn´t care if he was a ghost...a wandering soul....a strange being....or just nothing.....he didn't care about himself....he just wanted see her one more time.....but she was so sad and crying so much....and after noticed all that letters and vinyls in the room he felt something terrible.....and when he tried touch her he couldn't.....she screamed how much she hate him for never really love her and only play with her mind....when he really loved her....but he didn´t have voice to told her all his feelings....and for every tears she sheds....more and more he lost his soul....he looked for the gold crucifix necklace he gave to her......she never believed in God....and in that moment he was the one who couldn´t be able to believe in God....in himself...or anything good in the world...in the universe....or inside his own soul....cause the best person in the world....in his world...the only one he felt something so strong....the one he wanted protect and care....was suffering so much......and he couldn´t blame the destiny.....demons....or God....the only one he could blame for her cry so much....was him....he hated himself so much......
In 1977 she died alone after more than one year tormented by her own demons.....by all he left inside her....he tried help her when she was in difficult time......be in her side....but he only put her in difficult times in the end....he knew she didn´t loved him.....and maybe never could feel that feeling for him....or something like that again....but for like her so much....even if he felt something so special and hard to just put in words....he just wanted made her fell loved.....feel special....but he wasn´t good enough for her....never was...
In the room she had died.....even the most pretty and romantic songs....looks so sad....even after hundred.....thousand years....he never could be able to forgive himself....nerver could forget her....wasn't his fate.....was his choice...and wasn't something like....love.....nothing so superficial like words....but something about really deep feelings....and maybe a soul crying blood...he made her cry....suffer.....die......and all he wanted was protect her forever…"
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you know when i saw this again i feel inherently that i have to fave it again because its too pretty,
i aolways loved this one and the other of the christmas lights
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talking about that one and other you just said....they have a heavy meaning for me...you are always so kind with me...thank you a lot....for always support me for sure
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Wow, this piece conveys a strong power of emotion. I can see you have touched many with your work.
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Really have...with a lot means and feelings...thank you for your comment and notice that details through my drawings my friend....^^
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wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i seriously have to say that this is too AWESOME, i always love the way you do textures and this last drawings you do some parts of them look so REAL like in this one the hands of the woman look like that., i have always triying to make that effect in some of my drawings, you did that trick so perfect that even looks like a real picture if you dont pay so much attention.
When i first saw this i have that strange feeling that it must to be used in a important fashion magazine! The pose is just so charming, and i love here jewels in her hands like something i really have to buy and use, she is a perfect model!
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thank you very much my friend....really....that drawings means so much for me and receive that comment just made my day.......and I tried y best in some drawings....that one I can say is one of that drawings I spend a lot time....that effect I do during a whole week....because that looks so real....I use a high zoom in every single place in the drawing to care every detail...I am not talent so I need use my determination to convert a lot time in just one drawing to have a result I can accept....
you really know how do someone happy....>////<....your comment about that drawing really make me so glad.....that pose I liked a lot....and about the jewels I think is so awesome and pretty the way women can show their pesonalities throught some jewels they use...or when women try just hide who they really are using a lot jewels.....to people not notice her feelings....and how delicate they are...
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you deserve!!
its awesome when a man can admire and love women and femeninity, and the femenine world.
its so admirable even in women for to day, cause the las days i have heard a lot of women who said that hate women....its terrible
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You always say intersting things...but you are right....is rare when a man or a women can admire and love women and femeninity.....cause most just ""love""" or like what women looks liek outside and what they could offer and not what they really are...
And I think it´s really sad either...women said that hate women....but should hate society for made women act and act like society want.....when they just need be who they really are exactly the way they are........face that cruel fact that women forget to do and look for what they really want and wish in life....make me always so depressed and sad....cause they don´t hurt only themselves for ignore their own sincere feelings....but hurt the one who love them either...and they most time just ignore who really like and respect them for what really are..
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ahahaha, i dont say interesting things im just so crazy and weird, and sometimes dont know if im cool for that or i just sucks XD
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don´t say that...you really are a nice person...^^
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tao triste nyaaaaa D: mas tambêm tao lindo... >/////<
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eu sei que parece bem triste.....sei lá....esse tipo de desenho e sentimentos embora sejam tristes me fazem me sentir bem em escrever/desenhar...e obrigado de verdade pelo seu comentário e o elogio....gastei muito tempo nesse desenho...e significa muito para mim a forma que comentou sobre ele...
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realmente pode se ver a emocao que voce colocou no desenho e isso faz a pessoa ver sentir com o desenho e o criador do desenho >////< tambem acho que desenhos que tenham os sentimentos do pintador neles sao os mais belos 
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I know....that words can hurt a lot.....but seems so true and fits perfect with real life most time.
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Even if people will say 'its just words' however, some can hurt. Espically when people you know, if its a stranger you would igrone them.
But its a like a friend or a family member it cuts deeps 8(
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exactly....usually I just ignore words....cause in real life I just stopped to take serioues people for all looks so empty.....but when I finally decide believe in someone and then that one hurts me ....that pain is so deep that is even hard to explain.....but that looks simple....only can hurt us who we believe......and much more we love...more pain we feel
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Agreed *pats your back* my friend I agreed, 8( but its best to not take them into heart.
If people insulted us it makes us stronger
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You are right.....and I usually face all in that way but what is sad when someone we like hurt us....cause when someone is so special in the point we open all our heart for that one....do not take that words hurt us into the heart seems impossible....cause all that we think from that one we keep inside our heart....is like a risk we have to really love someone...and because that I think ""love"" is just a word without a real mean for most people...and the feeling we have when we say that word from our heart....only are pure and sincere inside us..cause only ourselves could really understand and take that feeling in the way it deserve...
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Completely agree.
Especially when you're suddenly in the blame, my sister told me not to take it seriously when it comes to our mom's anger but still she's my mom, so of course it'll effect me.
However if she does something horrible to me then in awful words I'll give her the cold shoulder and be mad at her.
My dad before he died last year, had a awful temper and of course there were at times we don't see eye to eye, when he died I cried because life without a dad you know. At least he was there when I reach adulthood.
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I really sorry for that dear.....and sorry much more for didn´t reply that comment before....because the time is really hard for me take the real special time for each message like each one deserve.....but I try my best always....but I know never is enough....like in that one.....is hard even to comment that of course....but I hope you know you can talk with me whatever you want...because the time maybe I won´t reply in the day...but when I read it I will give you my best to support you and be a good friend for you......lost someone we like is ahrd and talking about parent words never could described that....and even if I have no right to say something....you shouldn´t blame yourself if that happened before it......cause you couldn´t expect that....and even if you could.....for you be a good person you only think about the bad moments you had with him for think you could be better with him....but had teh good momenst either....and that moments you need treasure and keep in mind...cause I am sure that would be what he wish for you...remember the good and not bad moments.....bad moments we have independent the relantionship we have with someone.....but the good moments really make someone special for us.....or at least the fact independent of the bad moments they are there for us.....and parents never ask for us be good with them always...sometimes they even expect it....they just want the best for us...even if we can look them like enemies sometimes....so...I am sure they loved and will love you forever....cause you are special...not only for him but your family and all your friends.....and I really sorry if I made you remember bad moments my dear friend.....I know that kind of feeling we never forget.....so you can talk with me always if you want ok...I will be here..
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Thank you ^^ you're really a good person
No no, its okay, its just he has a temper but there at times we laugh too.
Thank you again and its okay and I'm sorry for this thou, it much be sudden for you about my dad
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Don´t say that....will be always a pleasure for me be here for you anytime...and that kind of feelings we keep inside us forever....like a wound that will always hurt little or more sometimes...and talk about something that hurt us could make us feel better sometimes...so...I will always be able to hear you my friend...^^
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You're very wise, ^^ thank you again. You're are soo cool!!
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Thank you for the compliment...I can say you are cool either my friend...^^
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Thank you very much for your comment bro....really means a lot to me...^^
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