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i want him unpoetic and graceless and impossible, rawboned and alive with the thrum of stubborn, stupid strength, arrogant and cocksure and good, with a roughscuffed heart of gold that longs for home and loves whole and pure and hopeless with a wanting that makes the words all tangle and catch in his throat but flow warm and willing from fingertips that know me better, with a rogue's twistlipped lightning smile and a laugh that rings echoes of the child he wasn't long enough, and eyes always, always burning fire-under-glass: brighter by the weight of the world on his shoulders or my dreams between his lashes, gold whispers blinking slow by dawnlight.
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younghabitat [2015-11-10 22:25:24 +0000 UTC]
I've been away from DA for nearly two years and came back only to come across this, which is exactly what I've been needing these last few weeks. Ugh! What am I to do with these emotions?
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fiercestrawberry [2015-06-22 17:18:53 +0000 UTC]
i love this, it's so small and aching but also a little big and looming and kind of like 3am phone calls. incredible work !!
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Shinseinasenshi [2015-05-26 03:05:23 +0000 UTC]
mc's never respond. I know the feeling. xD
*pats back*
There, there. ^^
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cality [2013-05-28 12:52:48 +0000 UTC]
This is gorgeous. Your words are so very beautiful, and I agree with *BeyondJen 's comment, too.
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sulabyrd [2013-05-28 04:30:08 +0000 UTC]
Your lovely piece of literature has been featured here: [link] . I encourage you to take the time to look through the others. <3
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IsabellaMichel [2012-05-04 22:25:30 +0000 UTC]
Damn.
This is pretty wicked.
While I absolutely love this little piece, (oddly enough, I was drawn to your writing through :iconthewrittenrevolution : submission that you wrote. To me...that piece was an "almost piece." (I know I can be pretty harsh but that's how I felt.) However, I decided that I adored your style enough to look through your gallery because I figured you'd have some gems in their. And huzzah! I was correct. I quite enjoyed this. Your writing is very fluid and this piece really made me smile. I love the stresses on "impossible," "good" and "hopeless." Over all this little piece of prose is fantastic.
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Avallynh In reply to IsabellaMichel [2012-05-05 03:00:57 +0000 UTC]
thank you!
no, you're absolutely right, that's why that piece still has work-in-progress in the title. i have to rework it, because as is it's a smattering of somewhat coherent thoughts and that doesn't make for a 'piece'.
i'm glad you liked this. thanks again for your thoughts and the fav.
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flummo [2012-03-11 11:19:36 +0000 UTC]
There are times when I get too lazy to read the Saturday Spotlight and just x them out of my inbox but god I'm so happy I didn't do it this time. This. Is absolutely beautiful. It caught and held me and I feel this way and I haven't been able to find the words to write it all down and agh. This is truly something. And this may sound pretentious because this is our first-ever contact (definitely not our last. the watch button is my next stop after this) but I'm sorry it only went as far as wanting.
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Avallynh In reply to flummo [2012-03-11 14:28:24 +0000 UTC]
also. nothing pretentious about that, tis much appreciated. i'm sorry it did, too. but hey, i can write about it.
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flummo In reply to Avallynh [2012-03-13 13:17:03 +0000 UTC]
Very true. If nothing else, you have your words.
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Avallynh In reply to flummo [2012-03-11 14:26:22 +0000 UTC]
thank you so much. i'm gratified it touched you so -- it was torn from somewhere inside me and on the page before i even had a handle on what was happening, i don't think my thinking mind would ever have come up with this either, but it's since become precious to me.
thank you for reading the article, too, and a massive thank you for all the favs and the watch. i'm honoured.
also: your page, the tagline. Katie McGrath?
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flummo In reply to Avallynh [2012-03-13 13:14:48 +0000 UTC]
I know how that feels. Those sorts of moments are simply magical.
And no problem.
And haha, my mother just quoted it at me this one time.
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Avallynh In reply to flummo [2012-03-13 18:53:52 +0000 UTC]
i pronounce your mother awesome, then.
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sunshinegypsy [2012-02-06 10:03:31 +0000 UTC]
I could almost hear you read this, rushed and eager and wanting. Amazing.
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Avallynh In reply to sunshinegypsy [2012-02-06 10:34:42 +0000 UTC]
thank you. it's too tripping to ever be perfect, but i honestly don't have the heart to change it.
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sunshinegypsy In reply to Avallynh [2012-02-06 10:46:56 +0000 UTC]
I only ever wrote one story. Well, I wrote stories when I was really young (I didn't start writing poetry until I was 19) but I wrote one story in college. It's pretty much exactly like what you wrote. Little rushed, vivid snatches of time. People enjoy reading it because it's fun but it's not really ever going to be anything.
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Avallynh In reply to sunshinegypsy [2012-02-06 10:54:29 +0000 UTC]
exactly. you don't have to end up somewhere every time.
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sunshinegypsy In reply to Avallynh [2012-02-06 11:13:52 +0000 UTC]
Yes! And it's fun to make words into whatever you want them to be, even if you can't say "it's poetry" or "it's a story". Sometimes it can just be what it is. I was an English major in college and I wrote SO MANY papers about other writer's work and it all had to be so... boring. Facts and quotes and evidence and arguments... I just wanted to write something that was totally free.
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BeyondJen [2012-01-29 20:58:36 +0000 UTC]
Oh geez, I think I want him too. You spill the most lovely, raw, gorgeous words.
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Avallynh In reply to BeyondJen [2012-01-30 09:15:23 +0000 UTC]
aw, i can't blame you for that. and it's hardly me -- he's amazing like that.
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Avallynh In reply to KaitForest [2012-01-15 10:49:29 +0000 UTC]
tis quite the endless run-on, yes. thank you.
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Avallynh In reply to archelyxs [2012-01-15 05:31:51 +0000 UTC]
not nearly as much as you, Megan.
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Underground-Rogue [2012-01-14 13:46:17 +0000 UTC]
Argh.
Argh, so much of it.
I have missed your words like you would not believe.
This caught me, threw me and made me heart-sore. Gorgeous.
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Avallynh In reply to Underground-Rogue [2012-01-14 18:30:03 +0000 UTC]
ohmy. i'll tell you then -- you've made me so very, very happy. because this was spontaneous spewing rubbish that i wanted to shove away someplace only i would know it was there so i could steal a bit or two of the better phrases for when i had sense enough to twist them 'round other words that weren't pulled from far,
far too close to home.
thank you so much, darling.
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Underground-Rogue In reply to Avallynh [2012-01-15 03:08:18 +0000 UTC]
Please don't edit a single word of it. It hit me so hard.
I hope you're okay. Sending much love.
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Avallynh In reply to Underground-Rogue [2012-01-15 05:35:28 +0000 UTC]
then i won't ever.
and i'm okay, oddly enough. i think it's the winter. winter makes everything better.
much love to you, too.
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FuzzyHoser [2012-01-13 15:31:47 +0000 UTC]
Ohmygosh. I have missed your oh-so-lovely descriptions. And...goodness, I can see why you can't let go.
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Avallynh In reply to FuzzyHoser [2012-01-13 15:38:10 +0000 UTC]
i love you i love you.
i'm a dreaming idiot is what, and unedited introspection is terrifying.
but i wanted to put this up.
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FuzzyHoser In reply to Avallynh [2012-01-13 15:43:34 +0000 UTC]
I love you, you lovely girl.
Dreaming idiots can be some of the most beautiful creatures. And I quite admire unedited introspection. It's much more raw and honest.
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Avallynh In reply to FuzzyHoser [2012-01-13 15:51:08 +0000 UTC]
it's a mess is what it is and there's so many things i'm scared to say i shouldn't say but sometimes i'm helpless as this and it spills over.
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FuzzyHoser In reply to Avallynh [2012-01-13 15:55:01 +0000 UTC]
There's no sense in being scared.
Say what you wish, darlin'.
p.s.
You should know that you're always welcome to send a note my way with the un-postable stuff.
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Avallynh In reply to FuzzyHoser [2012-01-13 16:13:01 +0000 UTC]
that's as much known as it is appreciated, Ms Hoser.
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