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For Sally, who passed away on August 30, 2019
I'm sorry I wasn't there to say goodbye
I love you, be a good girl

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God I've been away from here for a while… I'm really sorry guys. I didn't intend to be on this long a hiatus. I've had so much stuff getting in the way of me drawing stuff for here and my shoulders hurt from the weight. My doctor's appointment that would've gotten me my anxiety medication prescription got cancelled at the last minute and rescheduled for October 7. So now all my plans to stabilize and get a job have been shattered all over the ground for a whole nother month. And I've been sick as hell for the past few weeks because of allergies and overexhaustion from housework and drama and running back and forth trying to get everything done only to have another thing pop up that needs my attention and quite frankly I'm surprised I have collapsed on the sidewalk yet because I can feel the same sort of deterioration and chest pains I felt when my doctor at college told me the stress was literally killing me. And like that's all usual stuff I have to deal with but then my game controller died permanently and those things cost like 50 bucks to replace and I'm probably not gonna see that kind of money for a long time because I've been too sick to work my lawn mowing side job and obviously without my anxiety medication I can't hold down a real job and I've gotta reserve my last bit of money for actually important stuff until I can finally get to October so that's been stressing me out too and I don't even have the distraction of my games anymore either. I can't even just go to a friend's house because everyone lives so far away and has for so long so I'm just stuck here in a place I don't want to be because of things outside of my control. I feel so alone and helpless...

And then to top it all off, I got a call from my little brother the other day. And I found out that my dog Sally had been suffering from cancer and put down… And that… that broke me. I loved Sally so much you guys have no idea. She was the first of my three dogs. We rescued her after her previous owner just threw her out of a truck when she was a puppy because they didn't want her anymore. She was always there for me. When I was stuck with my mother and I cried myself to sleep, she would come in and lay with me and try to help the only way she knew how. She was always energetic even when she was upset or sick. The last time I visited her, when she was so old and white it made me cry, she still acted like a puppy. She was the first one out of the bunch to immediately recognize me after I was away for so long. Those dogs saved my life. Sally saved my life. And now she's gone… and I don't know how to handle that. I like to think she's in a better place than my mom's house. I like to think my grandfather is taking care of her for me. It doesn't make it hurt less but it helps.

So yeah, I'm sorry I've been away for so long and if I'm away for longer. I'm just really hurting physically and emotionally right now. I want to go home. I want my friends. I want my teacher who was basically my mom. I want my cousin.

I want my dog...

Description
For Sally, who passed away on August 30, 2019
I'm sorry I wasn't there to say goodbye
I love you, be a good girl

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God I've been away from here for a while… I'm really sorry guys. I didn't intend to be on this long a hiatus. I've had so much stuff getting in the way of me drawing stuff for here and my shoulders hurt from the weight. My doctor's appointment that would've gotten me my anxiety medication prescription got cancelled at the last minute and rescheduled for October 7. So now all my plans to stabilize and get a job have been shattered all over the ground for a whole nother month. And I've been sick as hell for the past few weeks because of allergies and overexhaustion from housework and drama and running back and forth trying to get everything done only to have another thing pop up that needs my attention and quite frankly I'm surprised I have collapsed on the sidewalk yet because I can feel the same sort of deterioration and chest pains I felt when my doctor at college told me the stress was literally killing me. And like that's all usual stuff I have to deal with but then my game controller died permanently and those things cost like 50 bucks to replace and I'm probably not gonna see that kind of money for a long time because I've been too sick to work my lawn mowing side job and obviously without my anxiety medication I can't hold down a real job and I've gotta reserve my last bit of money for actually important stuff until I can finally get to October so that's been stressing me out too and I don't even have the distraction of my games anymore either. I can't even just go to a friend's house because everyone lives so far away and has for so long so I'm just stuck here in a place I don't want to be because of things outside of my control. I feel so alone and helpless...

And then to top it all off, I got a call from my little brother the other day. And I found out that my dog Sally had been suffering from cancer and put down… And that… that broke me. I loved Sally so much you guys have no idea. She was the first of my three dogs. We rescued her after her previous owner just threw her out of a truck when she was a puppy because they didn't want her anymore. She was always there for me. When I was stuck with my mother and I cried myself to sleep, she would come in and lay with me and try to help the only way she knew how. She was always energetic even when she was upset or sick. The last time I visited her, when she was so old and white it made me cry, she still acted like a puppy. She was the first one out of the bunch to immediately recognize me after I was away for so long. Those dogs saved my life. Sally saved my life. And now she's gone… and I don't know how to handle that. I like to think she's in a better place than my mom's house. I like to think my grandfather is taking care of her for me. It doesn't make it hurt less but it helps.

So yeah, I'm sorry I've been away for so long and if I'm away for longer. I'm just really hurting physically and emotionally right now. I want to go home. I want my friends. I want my teacher who was basically my mom. I want my cousin.

I want my dog...