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I apologize for this being so graphicthe story behind it is..
I lost one of my best friends recently, it's a long personal story but it was partially my fault, partially his and the fact that the girl he's with isn't very fond of me.
Since all of this happened I started having the same nightmare about falling off a building, out a window and down a flight of stairs and having my arms broken, my legs twisted at unnatural angles and lying in a pool of my own blood. It's terrifying, to say the least.
In these dreams my friend comes, picks me up and untwists me and fixes my broken bones and sends me to go back to sleep, bloodstained nightgown and all and whenever I go to find him to thank him someone kills me, either a random person, or the girl he's with throws me off a building or hits me with a car and I end up the same as I was when my dream began, lying in my own blood.
My nightmares have always been horrific, but this is the first real recurring nightmare that I've had that involves someone else, I usually don't do these types of photos but in this case I thought it might help me come to terms with everything and finally be able to sleep soundly. I' don't think I've sleep a full night in weeks....
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Comments: 16
bcdealer [2011-01-30 02:03:52 +0000 UTC]
Wow. This is definitely different for you but I like why you did it. Definitely conveys emotion and fear, which is what you were going for, and also has a vulnerable quality to it. It sucks that the nightmare is the result of a problem with your friend, who (imo) is acting like an idiot by allowing one relationship to define another. Did posting this picture help you with sleep?
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classically-fragile In reply to bcdealer [2011-02-05 19:26:52 +0000 UTC]
the picture didn't, but I made a wonderful friend who did, talking to someone before I fall asleep seems to help a lot.
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bcdealer In reply to classically-fragile [2011-02-06 01:45:08 +0000 UTC]
Awww, well, I'm glad you met someone new that helps you ease into sleep a little better. I think I'm jealous! Lol. Just teasing
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classically-fragile In reply to bcdealer [2011-02-08 04:13:33 +0000 UTC]
if anything be jealous of me for meeting someone as wonderful as him.
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bcdealer In reply to classically-fragile [2011-02-09 20:09:36 +0000 UTC]
Hmm, ok, I can be jealous of you then! (like that isn't the case already anyway!)
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classically-fragile In reply to bcdealer [2011-02-16 13:03:51 +0000 UTC]
you can be jealous of me after(if) I pass this super hard anatomy test. o.o
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bcdealer In reply to classically-fragile [2011-02-16 18:14:34 +0000 UTC]
Oh please, you'll pass with flying colors! Which WILL just make me more jealous!
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25percent [2011-01-25 18:06:03 +0000 UTC]
The image is deeply disturbing, your story more so. I feel for you suffering like this and I regret I cannot help.
I am fortunate that I only remember a few of my dreams, which are cruel in a completely different way.
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classically-fragile In reply to 25percent [2011-01-26 22:36:11 +0000 UTC]
a friend told me something neat...
"There's no reason to be afraid of something in the dark, sometimes the dark is just another way to find the light." Since I've thought of this, and listened to him I feel a little better. Sometimes we make things out to be so terrible, and so horrible but when you take apart the biggest problems piece be piece, things become so simple.
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ANTAGONIST-88 [2011-01-24 02:42:11 +0000 UTC]
That's real scary. : (
I'd have to say you may want to try talking about it, send your friend a private message describing it.
A message like that is not one to keep to yourself and it could mean that girl could be bad for the both of you.
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classically-fragile In reply to ANTAGONIST-88 [2011-01-24 04:56:10 +0000 UTC]
well, right now the friend isn't talking to me at his girlfriends request, and I'm still kind of upset that he would abandon me completely like that...
I honestly don't know her that well to say if she's a good person or not, she could be completely clingy and psychotic or she could be the sweetest, most endearing girl ever. From what I do know of her, I'm leaning towards one more than the other, but it wouldn't be fair of me to say which here, hehee.
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ANTAGONIST-88 In reply to classically-fragile [2011-01-24 15:09:10 +0000 UTC]
Haha! Eh personalities are typically not hard to judge. ; D
Perhaps there's a way to contact him either way though, who knows.
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classically-fragile In reply to ANTAGONIST-88 [2011-01-25 00:42:59 +0000 UTC]
I talked to him a little bit, and just let him know why I was so upset.
I think I try to depend too much on happiness from others, I'm going to start focusing on what makes me happy, and focusing on school and improving myself makes me happy.
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ANTAGONIST-88 In reply to classically-fragile [2011-01-25 02:27:07 +0000 UTC]
That's good ^^
I'm the oposite, I tend to put everyone else before my own needs and it can really be a terrible flaw @_@ Fuck being selfless it's exhausting! Specially since I'm all sickly to begin with. I don't see any of that good karma commin' in yet D:<
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classically-fragile In reply to WonderfulUgly [2011-01-24 01:32:48 +0000 UTC]
what an honor, I admire your works so much for the same reason.
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