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The Books of Oyja IV: Mistakes
Chapter 11 Death of Jash

I looked up to the ceiling and gave out a cry. My human form had fully consumed me and with it all the memories of my old life. I had, of course, never fully forgotten them and had so never grown comfortable with them. I cried out to Tas to grant me forgiveness for what I had done. But had it been a part of the plan?

“But what happens when my purpose is complete?”
“You will fade into the background.”
“Will I go completely away?”
“No.” Jash shook her head. “But your whole purpose of life will be gone and you’ll have to make up a new reason.”

So what would be my new purpose? What would be the new plan? Wasn’t I stronger than I was before? Did form really matter? I tried to stand up but ended up rolling erratically towards Lum. He laughed right before I regained control of my own body and I stood up. I tried to change but nothing would happen. “You think I’d allow you to fight?” He asked and laughed.

“You are truly a coward!” I yelled at him with fear in my words. “If you had any inkling of bravery you would allow me to fight back!”

He changed his sword into one made of silver, gold, and bronze. I accepted the sword but hated it in my innermost being. “Your powers are gone and you are a mere mortal.” He said and laughed. “Did you think you could escape from your past? Your former order revered the past so much, I’m surprised you don’t. Maybe now you can remember!”

I raised the sword and Lum picked up my lightsaber. That lightsaber had my blood in it, so it was mine totally and completely. Lum was showing perversion in using such a symbol of light for darkness. In a further perversion he made it into a sword with the blade still the same blue I had grown used to. He smiled and raised the sword up as though to attack me. But, amazingly, he swung backwards and Kori was cut in half. “No!” I yelled. “What perversion makes you kill those I love?”

“What perversion makes you forget who you are?” He growled and attacked me again. While we were in the middle of battle he said, “You are no better than I. I, at least, don’t forget who I am!”

I wished that I had my powers which I had acquired as a Tenju, but that was too much to even hope for now. There was a thing that couldn’t be taken away: my training. I was much more adept at using swords now. More so than Lum who seemed to be clumsy with my former lightsaber.

I pushed him back towards the elevator and he was surprised as my strength was keeping up, never diminishing. Tas was also in the lowers, they just didn’t realize it. Lum managed to stay away from the elevator but crashed into the wall. He growled and tried to block a hit aimed at his arm but failed. A little blood came out and his anger seemed to increase.

My mood changed to that of hope. It was hope that I would live and Lum would die! I would finally see him dead! With this I increased my ferocity and we came into a room that seemed to be one for a council. I raised my blade in anticipation of Lum’s blood.

Lum seemed to have called on the Dark Lord of the Night for he was overpowering me. Where I once had the upper hand, now he was pushing down on me. He cut my right arm off and I fell down. Lum stood over me with what once had been a lightsaber held high about to strike me down. My life was going to end as my blood poured out. But my loss of blood wouldn’t be the death of me, but my own blade.

As the blade came down I started to think about my life. I lived a horrid life as Carrie Minaz, that whose body that I would die in, and should’ve been imprisoned for the murders which I had committed. Their blood seemed to fall onto me and their screams pierced my ears. Their faces in such pain and my yearning for their blood. Why oh why had I done it? Why had I started on such a dark path? From my readings of Earth history I had learned that a man had said, “Those that live by the sword will die by the sword.”

Oh, dear Tas, why didn’t you tell me that! Why did you abandon me? Why die in this pit full of snakes? Nowhere do I belong now and I see this as my blade comes down closer onto me. I had abandoned Jash and Veja to defend themselves against a man who, after he killed me, would surely go after them. What a father I had been!

Was Tas blessing me with an image of Jash? Was she the image I would hold onto before my death? Was I to be blessed by her presence before I died? I saw her draw her blade and Lum turn to block her. It seemed I was watching through someone else’s eyes. I felt something strange. Was this what it felt like to die? I felt my mind leaving me. A blackness seemed to start to cloud my vision.

I kept my eyes on the battle between Jash and Lum. He raised his blade and struck a killing blow that she didn’t catch because she was concentrating on something else. “No!” I cried out. “No! Jash! No! No! No!” Tears poured out my eyes. Was Tas teasing me? Jash’s image hadn’t been a blessing but a curse! What hell could compare with this?

Her face turned towards me and she gave me a smile of comfort as though all would be alright. How could things be right when she was gone? What hope would there be without her there? My hope was in her as was my strength. I felt my heart slowing down as well as my soul dying. I had not lived all these years with her just so I would see her dying. I wasn’t supposed to be her death for she was immortal, a COM of unheard beauty and divinity.

“Jash!” I cried out. “Don’t leave me! You and I will meet up after death but I can never get over that I kill you! Do you forgive me! Please say you forgive me before we die!” Tears were leaking out of my eyes as though a flood was coming out. A flood that would cover all the universes and even Tas would take notice of it.

Her reply was a smile. “I forgive you.” She said as the last breathes were whispered out and her presence seemed to divide into two. “I was meant to die and it is not your fault. Even if it were your fault, I could never hate you, my love.”

With that I saw her die and the blackness took me but not before I saw a surprised look from Lum Ka. I dearly hoped that the afterlife wouldn’t take me into this hell ever again.

Author’s Note: I hope this chapter made you cry as it nearly brought me to tears to write it. Jash was my favorite character, a serious character but one with strength.

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The Books of Oyja IV: Mistakes
Chapter 11 Death of Jash

I looked up to the ceiling and gave out a cry. My human form had fully consumed me and with it all the memories of my old life. I had, of course, never fully forgotten them and had so never grown comfortable with them. I cried out to Tas to grant me forgiveness for what I had done. But had it been a part of the plan?

“But what happens when my purpose is complete?”
“You will fade into the background.”
“Will I go completely away?”
“No.” Jash shook her head. “But your whole purpose of life will be gone and you’ll have to make up a new reason.”

So what would be my new purpose? What would be the new plan? Wasn’t I stronger than I was before? Did form really matter? I tried to stand up but ended up rolling erratically towards Lum. He laughed right before I regained control of my own body and I stood up. I tried to change but nothing would happen. “You think I’d allow you to fight?” He asked and laughed.

“You are truly a coward!” I yelled at him with fear in my words. “If you had any inkling of bravery you would allow me to fight back!”

He changed his sword into one made of silver, gold, and bronze. I accepted the sword but hated it in my innermost being. “Your powers are gone and you are a mere mortal.” He said and laughed. “Did you think you could escape from your past? Your former order revered the past so much, I’m surprised you don’t. Maybe now you can remember!”

I raised the sword and Lum picked up my lightsaber. That lightsaber had my blood in it, so it was mine totally and completely. Lum was showing perversion in using such a symbol of light for darkness. In a further perversion he made it into a sword with the blade still the same blue I had grown used to. He smiled and raised the sword up as though to attack me. But, amazingly, he swung backwards and Kori was cut in half. “No!” I yelled. “What perversion makes you kill those I love?”

“What perversion makes you forget who you are?” He growled and attacked me again. While we were in the middle of battle he said, “You are no better than I. I, at least, don’t forget who I am!”

I wished that I had my powers which I had acquired as a Tenju, but that was too much to even hope for now. There was a thing that couldn’t be taken away: my training. I was much more adept at using swords now. More so than Lum who seemed to be clumsy with my former lightsaber.

I pushed him back towards the elevator and he was surprised as my strength was keeping up, never diminishing. Tas was also in the lowers, they just didn’t realize it. Lum managed to stay away from the elevator but crashed into the wall. He growled and tried to block a hit aimed at his arm but failed. A little blood came out and his anger seemed to increase.

My mood changed to that of hope. It was hope that I would live and Lum would die! I would finally see him dead! With this I increased my ferocity and we came into a room that seemed to be one for a council. I raised my blade in anticipation of Lum’s blood.

Lum seemed to have called on the Dark Lord of the Night for he was overpowering me. Where I once had the upper hand, now he was pushing down on me. He cut my right arm off and I fell down. Lum stood over me with what once had been a lightsaber held high about to strike me down. My life was going to end as my blood poured out. But my loss of blood wouldn’t be the death of me, but my own blade.

As the blade came down I started to think about my life. I lived a horrid life as Carrie Minaz, that whose body that I would die in, and should’ve been imprisoned for the murders which I had committed. Their blood seemed to fall onto me and their screams pierced my ears. Their faces in such pain and my yearning for their blood. Why oh why had I done it? Why had I started on such a dark path? From my readings of Earth history I had learned that a man had said, “Those that live by the sword will die by the sword.”

Oh, dear Tas, why didn’t you tell me that! Why did you abandon me? Why die in this pit full of snakes? Nowhere do I belong now and I see this as my blade comes down closer onto me. I had abandoned Jash and Veja to defend themselves against a man who, after he killed me, would surely go after them. What a father I had been!

Was Tas blessing me with an image of Jash? Was she the image I would hold onto before my death? Was I to be blessed by her presence before I died? I saw her draw her blade and Lum turn to block her. It seemed I was watching through someone else’s eyes. I felt something strange. Was this what it felt like to die? I felt my mind leaving me. A blackness seemed to start to cloud my vision.

I kept my eyes on the battle between Jash and Lum. He raised his blade and struck a killing blow that she didn’t catch because she was concentrating on something else. “No!” I cried out. “No! Jash! No! No! No!” Tears poured out my eyes. Was Tas teasing me? Jash’s image hadn’t been a blessing but a curse! What hell could compare with this?

Her face turned towards me and she gave me a smile of comfort as though all would be alright. How could things be right when she was gone? What hope would there be without her there? My hope was in her as was my strength. I felt my heart slowing down as well as my soul dying. I had not lived all these years with her just so I would see her dying. I wasn’t supposed to be her death for she was immortal, a COM of unheard beauty and divinity.

“Jash!” I cried out. “Don’t leave me! You and I will meet up after death but I can never get over that I kill you! Do you forgive me! Please say you forgive me before we die!” Tears were leaking out of my eyes as though a flood was coming out. A flood that would cover all the universes and even Tas would take notice of it.

Her reply was a smile. “I forgive you.” She said as the last breathes were whispered out and her presence seemed to divide into two. “I was meant to die and it is not your fault. Even if it were your fault, I could never hate you, my love.”

With that I saw her die and the blackness took me but not before I saw a surprised look from Lum Ka. I dearly hoped that the afterlife wouldn’t take me into this hell ever again.

Author’s Note: I hope this chapter made you cry as it nearly brought me to tears to write it. Jash was my favorite character, a serious character but one with strength.