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Published: 2016-10-20 22:33:58 +0000 UTC; Views: 784; Favourites: 25; Downloads: 0
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EDIT: disabling comments so I don't have to get depressed again every time I look at this thing.Yesterday, I was going through this huge wave of depression, and I spent most of it mentally arguing with myself to decide whether to commit suicide, and how I would do it (I came up with the idea of jumping off the roof of my old high school to show people what their bullying did).
I started listening to this and eventually making up lyrics and singing to the tune of the song (something I often try to do, singing to express my feelings, but I usually fail. This time, it actually sounded good, amazingly). One of the things I ended up saying was, "Is that not what I always say? That things are what you believe." That actually was derived from my opinion on magic existing in the world. If you truly believe that your wish will come true, it'll give you a reason to keep on going and eventually reach your goal. That's a thing I often told myself throughout my life.
I owe the Kirby series a lot in my life. They're really why I decided to become an artist, which in turn, serves as my motivation, keeping me from hurting myself. Without Kirby I would likely be dead (or in a hospital, being forcefully kept from hurting myself... brr, that'd be awful). So this is my tribute to that greatness, the power that the Kirby games have that have saved my life... the power to help me believe in myself and the world.
Anyway, I'm feeling a lot better now than I was yesterday. You know, when Kirby and the Rainbow Curse came out I was disappointed with it, but it has some great music. They should have just made it a CD. xD
No texture version:Β sta.sh/03kugeuq7za
art belongs to me (Kirby Tardos)
gijinka design belongs to the GKotS crew (that includes me)
kirby belongs to hal/nintendo
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Pyro99deta [2016-10-21 18:54:47 +0000 UTC]
As someone who's recently lost a relative to suicide, I'm not sure what to say. But I've been told once, "It's always ok in the end, so if it's not ok now, it's not the end." You've been very strong to fight and stay alive until now ; you can do it. I hope things start looking better for you soon. Stay strong and best of luck !
Lovely piece, by the way~
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Dreamercatgirl [2016-10-21 07:14:31 +0000 UTC]
You may be going through a hard time but suicide is never the answer you do have people that love you, plus even though we aren't friends yet but I don't want to lose a friend so do your best to stay strong and ignore the bullies.
Otherwise really lovely piece.
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KirbyTardos In reply to Dreamercatgirl [2016-10-21 07:45:38 +0000 UTC]
I've already heard this talk...
And the bullies are out of my life now, thank god. But now I have social anxiety.
Thanks.
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Dreamercatgirl In reply to KirbyTardos [2016-10-21 07:53:57 +0000 UTC]
Oh I'm sorry if I came across as either repetitive or annoying, that's good that the bullies are gone. Social anxiety I wish I could help as I have a friend that has it too a really close friend, but I wish you the best of luck.
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confusedkangaroo [2016-10-21 06:42:19 +0000 UTC]
I'm sorry to hear that you are going through a hard time, enough to consider suicide, but just know that there is something to live for, whether believing, having Kirby or something else, and that there are people who are there for you in the world. I'm one of them, admiring your work (you draw people way better than I do!) and how you come across as a person.
As for the picture itself, remind me of a magical dreamscape. Makes me wonder what goes on in Kirby's head.
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KirbyTardos In reply to confusedkangaroo [2016-10-21 07:02:52 +0000 UTC]
I'm still trying to convince myself that there is something worth living for... that's what this drawing is for. Thanks for that support - though, I'm really not the same person in real life as I am on the Internet. >.<
Thanks~ When I drew this, I kind of just put nice-looking things together without paying attention to whether they made sense... I guess that's part of what gives the dream-like feel.
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confusedkangaroo In reply to KirbyTardos [2016-10-21 07:14:40 +0000 UTC]
Yeah, there can be a big difference between how people act in real life and online. I try to convey what I am like as a person through both, although I am still on the journey of truly finding myself. If anything about your internet 'persona' is anything to go by though, it seems to be that you are an enthusiastic, creative, thoughtful and caring individual.
Suddenly I'm reminded of a quote from a game. In the Legend of Spyro: Dawn of the Dragon, Spyro ends up getting hit by the dark form of his companion Cynder. He doesn't fight against her and when asked why, he replies:
'Because you've left me nothing to fight for.'
This snaps her out of darkness and she responds, 'There's always something.'
So, I suppose there's always something out there to keep you going.
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KirbyTardos In reply to confusedkangaroo [2016-10-21 07:50:49 +0000 UTC]
I don't think anyone truly understands themselves. Maybe that's why I can never understand other people, heh...
I hope that's true IRL too. You definitely won't see me being enthusiastic unless you're a close friend or I have sweets, haha, but maybe that's because I can't be around people... I think the real thing that separates parts of my personality is whether I'm in my house or not. xD
I've never played those games, so I'm not sure how to respond to that. xD
Sorry if there are any typos in this comment. I'm on my phone.
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confusedkangaroo In reply to KirbyTardos [2016-10-21 16:41:17 +0000 UTC]
You and me both.
I've just read your status post, so sorry if I made you feel worse, for I only had the best of intentions at heart. While I'm not someone who has social anxiety, I've had a continuous battle with shyness, and know there are aspects of me that are not socially the norm (like drawing PokΓ©mon as an adult). It's part of me, and I've been lucky in having a fiancΓ© who accepts me for me. I hope that there are people close to you who also accept you for you.
I see no typos, so you pass! XD
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KirbyTardos In reply to confusedkangaroo [2016-10-21 18:09:45 +0000 UTC]
It's fine - you didn't know.
Getting through those things can be hard... But I'm trying. The way I see it, if someone wants to do something, they should be allowed to do it if it doesn't hurt anyone.
Great! xD
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Kirbymyfriend972 [2016-10-21 01:15:09 +0000 UTC]
Don't even think about suicide, those bullies deserve to be punished so hard, I mean it, you are a nice person don't commit suicide, please.
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KirbyTardos In reply to Kirbymyfriend972 [2016-10-21 04:25:55 +0000 UTC]
It's very hard not to. But I'm trying.
thanks...
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