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21/11/2018

Oh look something positive-ish :0 (I failed at that thumbs up oops-)

But yea... I actually have done the thing I never thought I would ever do, at least again.. (since the last time I did it was in around June 2017 and it was scratching)
And about a week ago (six days ago? yeah) I actually took a step further, stopped for 5 days, then did it again yesterday though went a bit rougher (you can see them there on her forearm, the slightly more obvious ones were from yesterday, and the other lighter ones were from a week ago)
After waking up this morning, feeling like all the stress during the week was gone, I don’t really know how it happened, maybe the relief during the pain, but never have I felt that refreshed in the morning.

After realising all that, I decided to finally put a stop to this. For good.

I promise you all, this won’t happen again, for as long as I live.

Also I have to be honest... Now that I look at them, and I rub my finger on them...
I feel proud that after that week, the week that led me to do this, I’m still here.
But at the same time I’m a bit self-conscious, since the lighter ones are basically less visible now yet the ones from yesterday are still quite obvious, as well as I haven’t told anyone about this except only one person (you know who you are, buddy.. X3)
But now that you all have known, I just would like to thank you for being there when I wrote that status post. All of you.
You guys are the best out there, and even though I’m pretty much bound to lose some of you in the future (it always happens so I just have to accept it heh), you guys are still the ones that have been there for me and letting me know that everything will be okay, and I appreciate all of you.

For the ones that haven’t known and think that you’re somehow responsible for this, don’t think that way. It’s not your fault that I did this. It was just me, it was too much, vent arts didn’t help me at all and I wasn’t thinking clearly until I realised what I did.

The ones that frown upon this, that’s completely fine and I understand you. This is a bad idea in general, and overall an unhealthy coping mechanism. It does give you relief, yes, but I’m also aware that it’s exactly because of the relief, I can get addicted, that’s why I’m putting this to a stop. Temporary relief leads to permanent damage to yourself, it’s like drugs (and I don’t do drugs xD See the meme I did there?)

Holy crap the description is a long one (that’s what she said!) but either way, those of you who took the time to read this, I appreciate it a lot and I’m glad you take your time to read me rambling about since this topic is sensitive as heck.
And lastly, I love you guys, I’ll keep fighting, and I’ll make sure this won’t happen again.

I’ll let my wounds heal.

Art and Phoenix
(fun fact: Phoenix’s blood color is blue and I keep forgetting to color it blue ahah I’m so used to the usual red xD)

Description
21/11/2018

Oh look something positive-ish :0 (I failed at that thumbs up oops-)

But yea... I actually have done the thing I never thought I would ever do, at least again.. (since the last time I did it was in around June 2017 and it was scratching)
And about a week ago (six days ago? yeah) I actually took a step further, stopped for 5 days, then did it again yesterday though went a bit rougher (you can see them there on her forearm, the slightly more obvious ones were from yesterday, and the other lighter ones were from a week ago)
After waking up this morning, feeling like all the stress during the week was gone, I don’t really know how it happened, maybe the relief during the pain, but never have I felt that refreshed in the morning.

After realising all that, I decided to finally put a stop to this. For good.

I promise you all, this won’t happen again, for as long as I live.

Also I have to be honest... Now that I look at them, and I rub my finger on them...
I feel proud that after that week, the week that led me to do this, I’m still here.
But at the same time I’m a bit self-conscious, since the lighter ones are basically less visible now yet the ones from yesterday are still quite obvious, as well as I haven’t told anyone about this except only one person (you know who you are, buddy.. X3)
But now that you all have known, I just would like to thank you for being there when I wrote that status post. All of you.
You guys are the best out there, and even though I’m pretty much bound to lose some of you in the future (it always happens so I just have to accept it heh), you guys are still the ones that have been there for me and letting me know that everything will be okay, and I appreciate all of you.

For the ones that haven’t known and think that you’re somehow responsible for this, don’t think that way. It’s not your fault that I did this. It was just me, it was too much, vent arts didn’t help me at all and I wasn’t thinking clearly until I realised what I did.

The ones that frown upon this, that’s completely fine and I understand you. This is a bad idea in general, and overall an unhealthy coping mechanism. It does give you relief, yes, but I’m also aware that it’s exactly because of the relief, I can get addicted, that’s why I’m putting this to a stop. Temporary relief leads to permanent damage to yourself, it’s like drugs (and I don’t do drugs xD See the meme I did there?)

Holy crap the description is a long one (that’s what she said!) but either way, those of you who took the time to read this, I appreciate it a lot and I’m glad you take your time to read me rambling about since this topic is sensitive as heck.
And lastly, I love you guys, I’ll keep fighting, and I’ll make sure this won’t happen again.

I’ll let my wounds heal.

Art and Phoenix
(fun fact: Phoenix’s blood color is blue and I keep forgetting to color it blue ahah I’m so used to the usual red xD)