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neserit — Endless Waking
Published: 2005-08-09 08:02:36 +0000 UTC; Views: 339; Favourites: 3; Downloads: 26
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Sleep won't comeThe screams won't stop
From deep inside of me
It wells
The flesh is weak
The mind is restless
I cannot hear myself
Over the voices of my selves
Whispering, plotting
I am my own greatest love
I am my own greatest hate
Counting the hours
Counting the pills
How many until my arms grow numb?
How many until we rest?
I have learned to scorn
The sunrise
And view the moon
With dread and contempt
Neither night nor day
Offer me release
From my own torment
I have formed a hell for myself
Of countless cigarettes
And endless waking
Silence myself
One more pill
Now with slumber
08-03-05
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courting Morpheus? he is an elusive paramour . . . I know. I court him often. not successfully, mind . . . but occasionally he deigns to grace me with his embrace. and that for me is Heaven enough . . . . 
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Morpheus and I haven't really been on speaking terms lately. He does hold a serious grudge!
Thank you!
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he does, doesn't he? maybe that's what it is . . . I must have really seriously peeved him!!!
you're welcome hun!
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I think if you were to accidentally sneeze on him, he'd hold a grudge with you. He's so....sensitive? Maybe that's not the right word. He's like dreams themselves, fickle and unstable.
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I think sensitive is pretty close to the right word! touchy as well. hmph! wonder how one goes about placating the god of sleep?!?! I know what to do for his brother . . .. that guy and I are on rather intimate terms. but sleep? . . . . . definitely fickle and unstable!!!
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*lol* You know what? I always forget about Hypnos! Even ancient drawing that I've seen of him, he's always passed out on something!
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yeah . . . must be his brother's influence~!!! 
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It's either that or he just parties with Dionysus too much!
You know what? I'd love to see a video called Gods Gone Wild: Greece!
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that's definitely another possibility!
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Hmm...I don't think we'd need to even wonder about what Zeus would be caught doing!
I wonder....isn't it proper to consdier Hades to be the original Goth?
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yeah . . . Zeus will be pretty predictable . . .. *snickers* the perv!!!
yanno, I always thought of the Egyptian deities as the original goths . . . hell, they started the whole make-up thing! pale, dark lined eyes . . . way dead and exotic. though I suppose Hades and Persephone did start it for the Greeks . . . .. hmmmmmmm . . . .. interesting line of thought!!
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You are right! The Egyptian Gods were the first Goths!
Wait a minute....I knew I saw Anubis at the Goth club that night!
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probably! he and Horus really get around, from what I understand. maybe when we get ours all built and open they'll grace us with their exalted presences!!
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...and dance with lit cigarettes in their hands while sighing dramatically.
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:hugs: yes a nice warm blanket might help. and hm.... you might try some sleepytime tea, sometimes that helps a bit for me. i have tons of tea (there are just too many flavours 
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I tried the tea. It worked for a little bit, then stopped working. Hmmm...though it could have been the amoung of sugar I put in it.
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it could have been the amount of sugar... or you could try and see a doctor or a nurse practioner and see if they will put you on Trazadone which is an anti-depressant but it's also used for people who need something long term to take for insomnia.
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Hmm...I will be seeing a doctor this Tuesday. Also found out that some of the phobias I have, aren't exactly phobias but obessive compulsive thingies. Oh, the joy.
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well good luck with the doctor Nes. i hope that maybe some things get worked out, let me know if you need anything
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Will do and thank you.
I saw him and he thinks that I've always had my condition, but 9/11 was actually the trigger for it. I think I told Jasp about which part effected me the most.
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it could be that the condition was dormant or not very prominate and didn't really come out until 9/11 but you're probably right. I hope that things look up now that you've been to see this doc. take care hun and I'm here for you.
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Yikes.
*gently wraps you in a warm blanket of positive energy*
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Thank you for the fav on this one....a nice warm blanket of positve energy. *sighs* That sound nice right about now.
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Then relax and let it envelop you.
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