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I'm not like you!
I'm not lucky,
I'm not anything that you are!
The world inside me
Is never going to be right.
My world is erasing itself,
Making it easier for me to live.
But what happens when my world pushes undo?
It causes me grief.
It sits there trying to make me better,
Make its home a better place.
It leads my heart to believe things were fine.
That I was loved, thought of as beautiful,
Starting with my soul.
It tricked me! How could it!
I trusted it, loved it, and wanted it to be mine.
But it was never my world,
Just a Fantasy I was allowed to visit.
That's gone now, for all I know.
It might come back,
Or it might just walk its path to another vessel.
One that doesn’t nag at it to make her happy.
I'm not like you!
I don't have the luxury of love.
It's something that has refused to show itself.
As I keep walking and running and sprinting to what I think is the end,
I find out that it's really just another wrong road.
Maybe I should have made a left when I made a right?
But which right was it?
They all seemed right at that time.
I'll never find what you have, what you got in the end.
Why, why have I been drowning for years with no help?
I've managed to float at times long enough not to drown.
That time is coming short; soon the water will take me.
But it won't want me, it'll turn me away.
Away from it's comforting emptiness.
Away from this day to day monstrosity,
Away from the simplicity of pain.
How easily it comes and how easily it stays.

Description
I'm not like you!
I'm not lucky,
I'm not anything that you are!
The world inside me
Is never going to be right.
My world is erasing itself,
Making it easier for me to live.
But what happens when my world pushes undo?
It causes me grief.
It sits there trying to make me better,
Make its home a better place.
It leads my heart to believe things were fine.
That I was loved, thought of as beautiful,
Starting with my soul.
It tricked me! How could it!
I trusted it, loved it, and wanted it to be mine.
But it was never my world,
Just a Fantasy I was allowed to visit.
That's gone now, for all I know.
It might come back,
Or it might just walk its path to another vessel.
One that doesn’t nag at it to make her happy.
I'm not like you!
I don't have the luxury of love.
It's something that has refused to show itself.
As I keep walking and running and sprinting to what I think is the end,
I find out that it's really just another wrong road.
Maybe I should have made a left when I made a right?
But which right was it?
They all seemed right at that time.
I'll never find what you have, what you got in the end.
Why, why have I been drowning for years with no help?
I've managed to float at times long enough not to drown.
That time is coming short; soon the water will take me.
But it won't want me, it'll turn me away.
Away from it's comforting emptiness.
Away from this day to day monstrosity,
Away from the simplicity of pain.
How easily it comes and how easily it stays.