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I stood there, staring up into the rain for who knows how long.
No matter how much I willed it to, it couldn't wash away my thoughts. My mind was always moving along at an incredible rate. It wasn't something that could be stopped.
Sometimes deep-thinking wasn't so bad. I perceived a lot more than everyone around me. Most things that people wouldn't understand, I could usually figure out with just a few minutes of pulling thoughts together. But there were some times that I just wanted to kill my mind, shut it down for a little while. I wanted to not be able to think and just sit there in silence. But silence wasn't an option when it came to me. Even when all sound around me had evaporated, my mind still wanted to analyze and reanalyze. In fact, that was when my mind was the loudest. It was enough to drive one nuts. I can now easily understand why some people want to drive a screwdriver through their skull. On nights like these, when I just want sleep to embrace me, I often wish I could. If it could be enough to silence my thoughts, that is... I can truly imagine my corpse begging my still-alive brain to shut up so it could continue it's eternal rest. It wouldn't surprise me.
The drops of rain pounded on my face, barely being registered amidst all the other feelings and ideas and puzzles careening through my head. I believe I've developed insomnia because of this problem: my mind never lets me sleep anymore.
But tonight there was just one thing I can't let go of. My thoughts took a very intriguing turn today. One that had to do with time. Do you know why it's impossible to create a time machine? My mind let me know why in the most complicated way possible today.
They say if an airplane is just one degree off of its course it could end up hundreds of miles away from it's destination. That's how we must think of decisions. They're different forks of millions of pathways that lead all different directions. A time machine would only add millions more to just everyday life. It would be more than poor Time could handle. Just think of all the tiny decisions we make in a day: what to wear, when to get up, where to go, how to act, who to meet... Change just one and your whole future would be skewed with a totally different set of paths to choose from. Even an insignificant change such as what to eat for breakfast could change everything. If you were supposed to meet someone for the first time that day and it never happened because you spent 3 seconds more than usual choosing your cereal, it could impact your life more than you could ever imagine. The destination of your life would shift into one where you had never met that person. Just think of how things would be different had you met them! Think of someone you know right now. Picture them in your mind. Now erase them. Obliterate them from your thoughts. Imagine they never existed. Remove all times you've spent with them or any decisions they've influenced. Are they gone? Probably not. Is this hypothetical world different? Certainly!
And now you've experienced a chunk of my mind. Sobering, isn't it? Think of how drastically changed your life could be if you had only spent one second differently. Even the most insignificant decision is important. Some, fatally so.

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I stood there, staring up into the rain for who knows how long.
No matter how much I willed it to, it couldn't wash away my thoughts. My mind was always moving along at an incredible rate. It wasn't something that could be stopped.
Sometimes deep-thinking wasn't so bad. I perceived a lot more than everyone around me. Most things that people wouldn't understand, I could usually figure out with just a few minutes of pulling thoughts together. But there were some times that I just wanted to kill my mind, shut it down for a little while. I wanted to not be able to think and just sit there in silence. But silence wasn't an option when it came to me. Even when all sound around me had evaporated, my mind still wanted to analyze and reanalyze. In fact, that was when my mind was the loudest. It was enough to drive one nuts. I can now easily understand why some people want to drive a screwdriver through their skull. On nights like these, when I just want sleep to embrace me, I often wish I could. If it could be enough to silence my thoughts, that is... I can truly imagine my corpse begging my still-alive brain to shut up so it could continue it's eternal rest. It wouldn't surprise me.
The drops of rain pounded on my face, barely being registered amidst all the other feelings and ideas and puzzles careening through my head. I believe I've developed insomnia because of this problem: my mind never lets me sleep anymore.
But tonight there was just one thing I can't let go of. My thoughts took a very intriguing turn today. One that had to do with time. Do you know why it's impossible to create a time machine? My mind let me know why in the most complicated way possible today.
They say if an airplane is just one degree off of its course it could end up hundreds of miles away from it's destination. That's how we must think of decisions. They're different forks of millions of pathways that lead all different directions. A time machine would only add millions more to just everyday life. It would be more than poor Time could handle. Just think of all the tiny decisions we make in a day: what to wear, when to get up, where to go, how to act, who to meet... Change just one and your whole future would be skewed with a totally different set of paths to choose from. Even an insignificant change such as what to eat for breakfast could change everything. If you were supposed to meet someone for the first time that day and it never happened because you spent 3 seconds more than usual choosing your cereal, it could impact your life more than you could ever imagine. The destination of your life would shift into one where you had never met that person. Just think of how things would be different had you met them! Think of someone you know right now. Picture them in your mind. Now erase them. Obliterate them from your thoughts. Imagine they never existed. Remove all times you've spent with them or any decisions they've influenced. Are they gone? Probably not. Is this hypothetical world different? Certainly!
And now you've experienced a chunk of my mind. Sobering, isn't it? Think of how drastically changed your life could be if you had only spent one second differently. Even the most insignificant decision is important. Some, fatally so.