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Published: 2011-05-04 00:55:35 +0000 UTC; Views: 1314; Favourites: 33; Downloads: 2
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To possess my heart was simply not enough,you consumed my thoughts as well.
Enticed them with thoughts of us,
put me under your spell.
Hypnotized, unable to think.
Every word you said had me plunging deeper
into this bottomless abyss.
Thinking you were alongside me,
hand in hand, side by side.
I was smitten with you,
and I thought you felt the same.
Until you tore my heart.
Destroyed it, destroyed me.
Told me you loved me when you really love her.
You contemptible being, making me loathe you.
Shattering my heart, keeping the fragments.
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Comments: 57
We were.. well complicated, haha. We went on dates, and flirted, and you could just tell by the way we interacted with each other that an ardor was present. He motivated me, and I would always rave about what's up with us to my friends. They were all so excited.. til this whole thing fell apart. Fortunately, we've managed to stay friends. We'll never be as close as we were before, but I don't really want to be, either...
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heartbreaks are part of growing up i guess. though its hard and stressful.. its good to know that we can find our way to get through..
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im moved by your poem..
i can really feel how deep the wound he imparted in you..
heartfelt..
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Oh wow, thanks. He did, I was heartbroken, but I'm better now. I've found someone who will treat me better, someone more committed.
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good for you..im happy you already found him..
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Yeah, he honestly is. I'm over him now, thank goodness.
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that's good then that everything worked out
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Such raw and powerful emotions you have written here.
I can feel them in your words, your pain.
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Thank you, it was a tough time for me.
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You are welcome, and I can tell
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Makes me want to give you a hug 
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*hug* I hate that I still have feelings for him. Hopefully not seeing him this summer will get me over him. My best wishes to you, as well.
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Haha yeah, but thanks so much !
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welcome!
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Unfortunately true.
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He is an asshole. I`ve experienced the same thing. It hurts, i know. But dont get mad, he isnt worth it
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Unfortunately all heartbreak is bound to hurt, but I've been starting to realize that it's not worth being upset over anymore. I'm only going to live once, and I don't want to look back and remember how upset I was over some ass.
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Thats good C:
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This is fantastic. And if a guy dumps you for someone he meet over Facebook, well then he is the undesirable one not you, and he isn't worth any pity.
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Thank you. I've been starting to realize that, and hopefully I'll find someone who treats me much better.
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*hugs* Sorry, hun. If it helps at all, some idiot did the same to me, I guess.. Only I didn't let him get as close to me. >.<
I don't get why people have to just lie and cheat.. I'm pretty sure it'd still hurt if they told us outflat they were breaking up or seeing someone else, but seriously?? No need to lead us on, you know?? x.x
I'm sure you're find another one. Someone MUCH better and more deserving of you. :/
But, yeah, very emotional piece. Well put together and straight to the point. Very well done. <3
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*hugs* Thanks, your support means the word to me. I find it difficult to get close to people in the first place, and then once I do I end up falling in love with him and it ruins everything. But that moment where everything was perfect, I felt spectacular. I can't quite explain it. I was giggly, and I had butterflies all the time. I was a free spirit, and anyone could tell a difference just by looking at me. Then he lied, telling me he loved me when in fact he didn't. Guys are complicated, what else can I say 
Yes, the words just flowed easily after this happened, I just put my thoughts down, then organized them/changed words. Thanks for your kind word, I can't stress enough how much it made my day.
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*hugs back* Aww, hun. No problem at all. <3 ^_^
My pleasure, even.
But lol! I know what you mean! It's like eveything in the world is so much prettier or something. Even though it's the exact same, really. XD
But yeah.. Meh. I moved on from him. He still tries to talk to me every once in a while, but whatever. I have someone better now, so I, at least, have realized that there is hope for someone like me. XD
I'm sure you'll find someone just as awesome, if not better.
I just.. Hate the lying.. That's what really got to me, you know? :/
"Oh, yeah. I love you, baby." "Yeah.. That's why you always talk to her and say how beautiful she is and how'd you'd do her any time.." And then meh.. he goes and cheats. What the hell?? x.x
But whatever. Over it. It's cool now. <3 XD
And yeah, lol. Same happens with me. Usually when we write our best, huh?
And again, no problem, hun.
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Good for you! I hope whoever you have now treats you amazingly, and has restored any lost hope. I still talk to this kid in the class that we have together (lunch) which sucks, because I just end up falling for him even harder. I hear yah, lying sucks. If he really loves her so much, then why does he bother telling me? Why does he tell me he loves me, but that he likes her? They're not going to last and I know it, he's just going to end up hurt. I'm not trying to be selfish, but he would be better off single than with her. It would be nice if we were together, but I can't have everything. He never cheated because we weren't "official," it's extremely complicated to be honest. He's said he liked me, then said he liked her. That's not right. Well I'm rambling now, but I'm glad you're in a better relationship now. <3 
Any major changes lead to good pieces !
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Aww, hun. You seem really awesome, though. Your self confidence should be sky rocketing. <3 ^_^
But good for you!
And aww, thank you. He really does. Everyone says I'm so much better off with this guy than I ever was with the other one.
And ooh, I see.. Well, that's complicated indeed.. It's annoying, though, when people can't decide. XD
Because if it's hard to decide, then obviously neither is perfect, you know? :/
Not that anything is perfect.. But I'm sure one can be more perfect than the other. XD
And again, thank you. So, am I, for sure. XD
And agreed! ^_^
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Aw thank you! You're pretty rad too
That's fantastic, really.
Yeah, I don't want to seem like the second choice though. Like "Oh things didn't work out with this girl" then he comes crawling back to me. I've accepted the fact that no one is perfect, and from what he tells me this girl isn't either. I know this girl, and I'm not too sure about them being together.
Writing's definitely one major thing that's helping me get by
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oh my that is just so sad. I have no idea how any one can do that to another.
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I don't know either, and to be honest it caught me off guard.
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had that happen to me before and it did the same I guess one just wants to believe or hope for love and not to be with out love
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True. I wanted to be with him so badly, and we pretty much were "together." But unfortunately that was all short lived. Maybe he figured our friendship would be too valuable to risk, or she would be "easier" to date.
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shurgs guys who do that I will never get honestly datting is never easy
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I agree, guys are confusing
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I like it. Although I try to stay away from this specific kind of poetry, this was too well-written to ignore.
And don't worry too much about him. People like him leave everyone. They would leave the most perfect person in the world, just because they could. I know that "there's nothing you could have done" isn't much of a consolation, but it is the truth. One of my friends dealt with the same type. Just write some more, forget about him, and don't let him come back if he offers. You're better than him.
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Thank you so much.
It really means a lot that you said that. Hopefully one day I'll meet someone who treats me way better than him. It's tough, but I can't magically make him like me, even though he led me on. Writing is definitely a good outlet, and I'm trying to get him out of my mind. I'm trying to avoid him for now, though I can't runaway forever. One day he'll get a wake up call and realize just how much he's missing out on. Especially since he barely knows this girl, I doubt she'll be worth it to him.
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You're very welcome!^-^
I'm glad it helped, if only a little. I hope you do too, I'm cheering for you. That's good. Ah, you never can, just try and give yourself a break, however long or short it is, it'll still help. Yep, I honestly have no idea why people do crap like this. I hope you get over him soon. I wish you luck.
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Yes, every supporting word has been helping me get by
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I'm glad. That's good. Good, but try to get all the resentment out. Vent, talk to someone physically if you haven't, cause just saying things out loud can be such a relief sometimes. It's better for you in the long run if you try to talk to him eventually, hear him out a bit, and try to forgive him eventually, even if he doesn't deserve it. Maybe that's something you need to ask him when you feel ready to.
You're very welcome. As I said, I'm rooting for you.^-^
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Of course, I talk to my friends about it and they're definitely supportive. When I see him in school it's awkward for me, because he hurt me so much and acts as if he doesn't have the slightest clue. Or maybe he doesn't. When I'm ready I will tell him, but I'm not going to force myself to say things before I've prepared them. I'm a very forgiving person, I just need time. I would love to hear all about their story, though it may kill me to hear it. I know the girl who he likes, and though she doesn't seem like his type because he's very smart while she's a ditz, I wouldn't say that to him. We all have one class with the three of us together, physical education, which is an every other day course. Tomorrow happens to be that day, so I'll see what their interaction is like. I've never seem them talk, or even make eye contact, which is weird. I'll definitely keep posting about how the situation turns out, maybe in the journal feature.
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That's good. I'm really not sure. I only know so much. Alright, no need to rush anything. Yeah, it's just really easy to forget even considering forgiveness in some situations, and, as I said, just eventually, not now, not today, not even tomorrow, unless you're ready. I know it'll be hard to hear it, but it'll be a kind of closure. You never know wy guys choose the girls they do:maybe she makes him feel smarter? Kay. Strange...I'm not sure what to make of that, because my friend's guy was older, and she didn't tell me about him until after they'd gotten together. She never does.
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Yeah, I'm going to see him in lunch tomorrow, and see what he has to say. It's going to hurt, as any heartbreak will, but I need to stop running away from my problems. I'm not sure when I'll mention just how much he broke my heart, because I don't want to get into that discussion when there's everybody at my table there. When they do start "officially" going out then I guess I'll know for sure, but until now I'll have to forget how he was once more than a friend to me. He usually tells me when he likes a girl, though it's never been a problem because he's never announced it when I was in love with him. It sucks how I'm incredibly disappointed in him, yet in love with him at the same time.
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Otay! Good luck! I hope that things turn out well for you. Yeah, that's understandable. It tends to work that way. It's hard to fall out of love when you're in so deep.
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Thanks so much! I'll definitely keep updated on deviantart, perhaps via the journal feature. This is definitely going to take me a long time to get over, or maybe I won't have to, if things happen between him and this other girl. Whatever, I'm not getting my hopes up.
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You're very welcome!^-^ Otay, I'm watching your journal. I'll get my hopes up for you.
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