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Description
darkness
like totally black
eating my soul
listen to my screams
why can't you hear
take that towel off your head
don't you see
of course you don't
you are wearing shades
it is night
stop making that face

bleak black blacky blackness
brick me up in my shell
like i can even move
crippled by sadness
eaten by doves
they said they would love me
they said they were love
but they eat my flesh
like all the other
carnivorous birds

i would try to lift the knife
but i am too
depressed
to cut myself
a piece of cake
with brown sprinkles
the unhappy color
indifferent to my birthday
why weren't you there
why were you far away
you could have called
but you didn't
i ate my cake
with my other friends
it wasn't as good
without you there
God

i'm ugly
i'm stupid
why can't i get anything
i want
i try
sometimes
but
it
is
hard to even
feel
like bitter litter
my cat has left behind
tear on my cheek
hair in my mouth
teeth on my knees
i'm confused
nothing is easy

i must fight
though others do not
i am alone in this bout
stricken with gout
of the soul
defiance
allowance
my parents have
taken it from me

no one knows
not you
not him
not her
not friends nor foes
not even me
but at least i see
...
...
...
...
the void.

Description
darkness
like totally black
eating my soul
listen to my screams
why can't you hear
take that towel off your head
don't you see
of course you don't
you are wearing shades
it is night
stop making that face

bleak black blacky blackness
brick me up in my shell
like i can even move
crippled by sadness
eaten by doves
they said they would love me
they said they were love
but they eat my flesh
like all the other
carnivorous birds

i would try to lift the knife
but i am too
depressed
to cut myself
a piece of cake
with brown sprinkles
the unhappy color
indifferent to my birthday
why weren't you there
why were you far away
you could have called
but you didn't
i ate my cake
with my other friends
it wasn't as good
without you there
God

i'm ugly
i'm stupid
why can't i get anything
i want
i try
sometimes
but
it
is
hard to even
feel
like bitter litter
my cat has left behind
tear on my cheek
hair in my mouth
teeth on my knees
i'm confused
nothing is easy

i must fight
though others do not
i am alone in this bout
stricken with gout
of the soul
defiance
allowance
my parents have
taken it from me

no one knows
not you
not him
not her
not friends nor foes
not even me
but at least i see
...
...
...
...
the void.