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Published: 2013-06-12 04:03:00 +0000 UTC; Views: 462; Favourites: 18; Downloads: 0
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This only took me like...and hour or two XD ahahha I have to say it was kinda fun- ALSO, IF YOU DONT LIKE SELF-PITY PARTIES, DO NO READ THE TEXT WALL BELOW!! JUST TRYING TO SAVE YOU TROUBLE, GUYS X'D I KNOW YOU ALL HAVE YOUR OWN PROBLEMS!A number of things added up to the creation of this- Basically venting art for the things I can't ACTUALLY do, even if I really wanted to.
I could go into detail, but who wants to read that? Surely not the majority of my watchers......then again...would it hurt to let everyone know why I've been such a bitch lately?
well. I'll start off by saying, My sister left me. Again. This time i doubt shes coming back. Split up with her fiance and left today with all her things to go live in NYC and go make a life for herself. It sounds selfish...but its quite lonely here without her. that, and I have no one to run to when I cant handle things at home. This means that my two best friends in rl have simply ceased to exist for a while, My other friend, Joy, in Sweden currently with her ever intuitive and charming boyfriend.
My mothers friend has threatened to take back the small kitten given to me to take care of while the rest of the household went on a friggen shopping spree for vicious dogs to take over the lower level of the house. My cat possibly has FIV, but I have yet to get her tested. If it is the case that she does have it, id like to spend as much time as possible with her.
I only realized fairly recently that I had a crush on someone I'd known for four and a half years, only to discover today that he turned gay recently as well *bitter laughter* I find it painfully ironic, simply because he had asked me out once a long time ago. I figure that...Once...I was pretty enough to make him want to date me. Am I no longer pretty enough to warrant that kind of affection?
School. You've drained my soul, and still want more from me yet. Chemistry regents is Tuesday, and I've never felt more fucked over than I do now. If I don't pull my head out of my ass soon and go to some review classes, I will sure as hell fail. Me and failing a class never did mesh well in my head. I really don't want it to come to that.
Commissions. I am really behind on those. and I don't think I should apologize more to the people waiting, because I'm sure they're sick of hearing it from me. With finals, and the lack of free time, I hardly get to work on things...and group art is taking up my time as well.
I'd like to tell you all to fuck yourselves, but then i realize, I have no one to be angry at but myself...and I truly do love you all. I'm sorry you've all had to deal with my unkind, selfish, bitter self...and i know the summer will help me recover the me that was taken away by all this stress.
Thanks for reading,
Natalia
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Baby, baby, baby, c'mere you big sweet, loveable marshmallow of funny, you-
I know that it isn't much, but I just want you to know that I'm here for you, and if you need anyone to talk to, note me alright? We don't really know each other that well, but from RPing with you, I know you are hella funny and an awesome chika, so don't let no one tell you otherwise, mmkay gurl?
((I'd say more but that betch Teruko stole all the sweetness///SHOT))
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Thank freaking god you finally did this. :I You stupid fffff you need to learn that it's okay to break down every once in a while. I'd go so far as to say it's healthy too. But anyway, I'm glad you got some of this off your chest here. It sucks to hear about all the shit you're having to deal with and I'm sorry I can't physically be there to hug it out with you. But I can leave a boring comment in this box and occasionally poke your skype~ So expect that much betch.
Go get some rest. Flop out on the couch for the day with a bowl of popcorn and some Disney movies shit. Pet the cat. Stay in your pj's. Be a slob for a day and you'll feel just a bit better.
And shush your face you're one of the most beautiful people I have the pleasure of knowing. And you're welcome to tell me to go fuck myself anytime.
You're a big tough chick I know you can beat this shit down.
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH I don't know what to say. But, ugh, -hugs to death- things will get better. You're gorgeous and I've never seen you do or say something that could be characterized as unkind. Life piles up on us sometimes, it's okay to be angry and sad.
also, never, ever date someone who only gives you compliments on your looks Bu
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Man, venting is fine; I certainly won't hate you for it.
The only thing I have to say is about the gay guy: It's not as simple as "Am I not pretty enough anymore?", there are probably way more factors involved than that. Don't worry about it too much. If he's still your friend, then great! If not, then whatever! Don't dwell on past things like that; it's bad for you.
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Aww sweety, it's okay to cry and to feel sad and angry and more. Life is hard and dealing with it is even harder. Though I must say I laughed a little at the crush being gay part, because that happened to me too, but now he is still one of my best friend. It is good that you let it out, be strong Descha <3
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Thanks, Lolli. It means a lot. It sucks when I just feels like giving up on the spot because of things like this..I can still see the light at the end of the tunnel XD I know I can do this, and I just need to hold out a little longer.
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That sounds awful. Eat some chocolate and try to feel better. <3 love you bunches even if we don't talk much.
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Thanks, Mif X'D I will eat loads of chocolate. Everything will be alright, I'm sure
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Keep your head up and just keep looking at the positives. It's okay if you need to take time for yourself, I'm sure your commissioners will understand. I'm wishing you all the best, and I hope your cat doesn't have FIV.
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Thank you Janie, It means a lot. I think I will take some time to myself....its a good idea.
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