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Published: 2008-01-31 04:14:28 +0000 UTC; Views: 3732; Favourites: 262; Downloads: 0
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Are you proud of your nerddom? Sport this stamp on your journal to show of your inner nerd!Related content
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kind of like mutant and proud
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lol yeah sorry about replying so late. Haven't been on lately :/
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no it's fine it's not like I was expecting you or anything sarcasm begins: (DANG IT LAMBERTLOVER6 YOU'RE 6 MONTHS BEHIND DEADLINE!)sarcasm ends
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Lol. Yeah, school is a bitch man. And I'm FINALLY leaving to go to a different school. The school I'm at has caused so much emotional shit for me. I mean. (and don't tell anyone else this, not many know) I'm already dealing with depression, school is just making it worse.
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Really I have another friend who's dealing with depression and suicide. Tell me about what it's like.
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It's hell. You always feel like you're alone, even when you know you're not. You always feel empty. You feel the only way out of the pain and the sadness is by ending your like. It's terrible and what's even worse, is once you start cutting, you can't fucking stop. It's so addictive and it's horrible. I mean, I've been cutting for almost tow years now and it seems like each time that I just cut deeper and deeper. It's awful.
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god that sounds horrible have you tried talking to anyone about it? Parents, good friends?
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Yeah, but it's still hard cause they don't always know.
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have you tried calling any of the suicide hotlines when you're thinking about it those people can help you. Look the thing is Deppression isn't just you it's an actual illness that can be cured. Talk to someone get help and when the going get's really tough I like to remember a quote from the Great Gatsby... "They're a rotten crowd AND YOU'RE BETTER THAN THE WHOLE DAMNED BUNCH!"
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I'm not really suicidal(yes, I kinda am) but I'm already in counseling and I haven't had very many appointments yet so I have no idea if it'll help or not. :/
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Good that's really good just be sure to give them as much as you can because the more you tell them the more they can help you I have a friend whose dealt with all kinds of things like this and really understands I'll ask her if she wants to talk to you then send you a link okay?
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Okay. Thank you!
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Thank you very much. It means a lot.
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welcome everyone means a lot too... everyone
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That's what people tell me. I hope it's true though cause so far things seems to be getting worse
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just remember that your life is worth it no matter, what, there are around 7.5 billion different stories going on in this world right now and each one matters... I just had a good friend of mine commit suicide, and what people don't realize is that it hurts almost every single person who has ever touched that person in any way.
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Yeah, I know how that feels. I had the same thing happen to me four years ago and we were really close. I was right there when it happened and I am never going to forget him. Losing him was like losing family and it changed me so much
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God I'm so sorry... there are no words
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It's okay. It was hard though. It was hard for our whole group. I mean, he was the oldest and he always made sure we didn't do anything stupid xD But... idk... I guess its part of why I cut now bc I remember him and I feel like I could've done better...
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That's awful... still the group you mentioned at least you have them right? I mean at least you're not alone
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Yeah, but it was still hard on all of us. It was hardest for me and Michael, my friend's brother. I don't think he ever really recovered from it... but idk
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well it's not something you really recover from... it's really just something you try to come to terms with... my friends funeral is today and I'm speaking at itΒ
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Oh. I'm sorry. 
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god that's awful... after my friend died I wasn't there but I was with her the day before I just kept imagining her hanging from her ceiling and it made me sick to my stomach... I can't imagine how hard it would be to have been there.
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It was really hard, but his brother was right in the living room with him and I had been walking into the living room. It took a while for the both of us to get that image out of our heads and even then it hasn't really gone away. And it will take much longer for my friend to even accept that his brother is gone. He still just sits in his room and doesn't do anything. He just stares at the wall. And what's even worse is that he was fine one day then suicidal the next... we didn't even see it coming
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God that's terrible it's awful what grief can do to a person
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yeah even his counselor didn't see it. she said he was fine and that he had gotten better but shows what they know doesn't it
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yeah... God that's awful, it's hard when people don't realize or don't care how many people around them care about them.
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yeah, it is. i had to keep one of my friends from committing suicide and its a long story as to why but she got really hurt and didn't want to deal with it and felt that that was the best option.
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you know what really helped me in grieving? talking to people who didn't know her, it just really helps when the person you're trying to confide in isn't crying as well, you don't get as emotional and you hopefully aren't talking to someone who gives you that "How are you feeling?" BS seriously how do they think you're feeling!
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right? i hate it when people do that. it's all like "well, im fucking crying right in front of u, how do u think im feeling?" like, seriously. its annoying when people do that.
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yeah or when they say "Tell me what you're feeling right now" it's like if you knew what I was feeling right now you'd want to go over into a corner and cry yourself
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exactly, and then because they don't know how bad it really is they kinda make it worse
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still it's nice being able to hang out with people who are friends but didn't know the person that really helped me... I've probably already mentioned this sorry
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I am a nerd too and there is no shame with that!
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Ha. Who says it has to be a bad thing being a nerd?
This is going strait into my journal. Thank you very much for making it.
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