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5/90 Hell Scared.

I'm hell scared. Have you heard of iiSuperwomanii? She's such a strong, beautiful and wise woman. Living the dream. THAT.

I'm scared of not living the life I'd like & achieve what I want. I'm hell scared of feeling trapped, whether it's from work, family, friends or time. I'm afraid I'm gonna loose track & that I can't live my age. What everybody's doing, I'm not doing it. What if nobody gets me? Honestly!

I confess these feelings mostly to my sister @ashleyallisonb, but sometimes I don't like to bother her... and I stay silent, even though my mind turns crazy for 10 seconds or so.

This journey seems so impressive to be realistic, it makes me cry because I'm frightened. Why all those feelings? After all, I want to live like everyone else, but in my own version. The distance between being normal and being who I am makes me feel confused. I don't go out to bars or partys. I don't like to drink that much, I don't travel with friends yet. I don't have a super close tight circle of friends where I can feel 100% me.

I'm still learning the process. I'm Cindy with a gorgeous piano to play with or a camera to express my current vibe & mood. My highest personal reference... As long as I'm creating with passion and do all what I can to bring comfort & peace in people, I'm safe.

Mostly, I never know who is willing to listen to me truthfully. Instead, I find ways to overcome it because there's one thing I own to myself: love forever. I'm weird too. What the hell?! The way I handle and care about my sanity is more important than any of these temporary feelings. Bye!

- The insecure version of me says hi

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5/90 Hell Scared.

I'm hell scared. Have you heard of iiSuperwomanii? She's such a strong, beautiful and wise woman. Living the dream. THAT.

I'm scared of not living the life I'd like & achieve what I want. I'm hell scared of feeling trapped, whether it's from work, family, friends or time. I'm afraid I'm gonna loose track & that I can't live my age. What everybody's doing, I'm not doing it. What if nobody gets me? Honestly!

I confess these feelings mostly to my sister @ashleyallisonb, but sometimes I don't like to bother her... and I stay silent, even though my mind turns crazy for 10 seconds or so.

This journey seems so impressive to be realistic, it makes me cry because I'm frightened. Why all those feelings? After all, I want to live like everyone else, but in my own version. The distance between being normal and being who I am makes me feel confused. I don't go out to bars or partys. I don't like to drink that much, I don't travel with friends yet. I don't have a super close tight circle of friends where I can feel 100% me.

I'm still learning the process. I'm Cindy with a gorgeous piano to play with or a camera to express my current vibe & mood. My highest personal reference... As long as I'm creating with passion and do all what I can to bring comfort & peace in people, I'm safe.

Mostly, I never know who is willing to listen to me truthfully. Instead, I find ways to overcome it because there's one thing I own to myself: love forever. I'm weird too. What the hell?! The way I handle and care about my sanity is more important than any of these temporary feelings. Bye!

- The insecure version of me says hi