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i'm not o-fucking-kay
i'm never alright, i'm a fuck up, i'm a mess
it feels like someones trying to rip my heart out and i'm letting them because god knows i deserve it and really i don't know what to do anymore i don't know anything else
i'm all out of fight, i'm exploding, i'm burning and nothing stops it, nothing ever stops it anymore nothing helps
i want out of this now, i'm sick of being a burning building smouldering into the skyline
i want it to stop, but she's not here to stop it, to tame my fire, she'll never be here again and that realisation sends another firey burst into the night
my structure is crumbling my resolve is being picked apart my fight is leaving me
shes not here to set me right and goddamnit i need her
the only people i ever let myself need, i ever let myself love, and they've left me
i'm screaming but noone can hear it, noones listening, noones tuned in to radio pain i'm dying and everyone can see it but noones noticing
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"l-o-s-e-r, i can only be who i are"
i'm a loser, i'm a wreck, i'm not okay
but that's fine because neithers she
and the tables have turned; we're both so imperfect we're fit perfectly together

she takes my hand and the pain in my head subsides
she smiles at me and my heart does backflips
when she laughs and when her eyes light up when she sees me, when she can hear me, i can't help but grin lopsidedly back at her, knowing my own insides are as lit up as a firework