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I.I took a walk once, and
Depression walked alongside me.
"I want to be alone," I told him.
"I know," he replied,
"Why do you think I'm here?"
II.
"I have a plan,"
Depression said to me.
"Not today," I said.
"I'm tired."
He frowned and asked,
"How did you know my plan?"
III.
I gave the weekend over to Depression
but he took three days
instead of two.
"Think of it as an investment," he said.
"And maybe I'll let you have a Friday night
without regrets."
IV.
Fallen to the floor
I look up and see
he's smiling at me.
"You know what they say
about old dogs."
He's doing this on purpose,
I know he is-
and it's working.
"They can't learn new tricks?"
I asked, playing my part.
"No," he replied,
"They die."
V.
I walked away,
my Trials and Tribulations
defeated behind me.
Depression followed,
but even he took a moment
and whistled low.
"I don't think much of you, but
those were some big guys."
I answered honestly:
"What were they,
compared to you?"
VI.
I looked Depression in the eye
staring without pardon or pause.
"Stop that," he said.
"Why," I asked,
"You nervous?"
He looked away
and said nothing.
VII.
Depression smiled at me
And I smiled back.
"You can't win,"
he told me.
"Winning's not the point,"
and I took my turn on the board.
"The point is to keep playing."
He laughed
but said nothing.
"Your move,"
I told him.
VIII.
I look beside me and see
that Depression and I
never once lost stride.
He's still here,
still with me.
"Who knows," he said.
"Maybe youβll grow old one day.
We'll sit on rocking chairs,
cursing one another,
still playing our little game."
He smiled, and maybe I did too.
"Better yet," I told him.
"Maybe you won't be around at all."
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Comments: 272
tinkertype In reply to ??? [2014-06-25 22:32:09 +0000 UTC]
Here, sorry. *handkerchief* Thank you for feeling so much, and I'm glad you enjoyed this piece.
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Eva02Asuka In reply to ??? [2014-06-21 09:48:14 +0000 UTC]
It's depressing an motivating at the same time. Just wonderful.
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tinkertype In reply to Eva02Asuka [2014-06-25 22:30:22 +0000 UTC]
Not an easy feat, but I'm glad it could be achieved. Thank you very much for the read! :3
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Sorra-NightShade In reply to ??? [2014-06-21 09:05:00 +0000 UTC]
This was just the thing I needed today. It's like it came at just the right moment.
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tinkertype In reply to Sorra-NightShade [2014-06-25 22:29:45 +0000 UTC]
I love poems like that. I'm humbled that my piece could do that for you.
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LionesseRampant In reply to ??? [2014-06-21 07:19:23 +0000 UTC]
Wow. This is just. Holy crap this is amazing. I'm just going to keep reading it forever.
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tinkertype In reply to LionesseRampant [2014-06-25 22:29:19 +0000 UTC]
^///^ Thank you, that means a lot.
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MagicalJoey In reply to ??? [2014-06-20 15:20:31 +0000 UTC]
Thank you for sharing this - for someone with writers block it is really well written.
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tinkertype In reply to MagicalJoey [2014-06-25 22:29:00 +0000 UTC]
It's why minimalist pieces have always been my favorite. ^^ My normal medium is prose, and poetry just helps me get things moving along. Thank you so much for reading. C:
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qwibes In reply to ??? [2014-06-16 10:28:11 +0000 UTC]
Thank you for writing, and sharing this
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tinkertype In reply to qwibes [2014-06-16 13:43:19 +0000 UTC]
Thank you for reading. C:
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qwibes In reply to tinkertype [2014-06-16 15:31:07 +0000 UTC]
It really was a pleasure to read. Though it's a heavy subject, it ended so very hopeful.
This gave me some strength, and I can't thank you enough for that
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DamagedHomewrecker In reply to ??? [2014-06-13 23:33:23 +0000 UTC]
this was absolute perfection. this was exactly how i was feeling for months. and only recently have i started to pull myself out. its still a struggle filled with lots of anxiety. but this, this hopeful ending, this is just absolutely real and beautiful, and you took my heart and you spilled it across the page, thank you <3
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tinkertype In reply to DamagedHomewrecker [2014-06-16 05:39:14 +0000 UTC]
Your response to this poem is truly humbling, and I'm so glad that you liked it so much. From one spilled heart to another, thank you.
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Synesthi In reply to ??? [2014-06-13 05:34:06 +0000 UTC]
This was so beautiful that it hurt. Thank you for writing it.
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tinkertype In reply to Synesthi [2014-06-13 05:45:32 +0000 UTC]
Thank you so much for reading it. I'm sorry that it hurt, but I know that it can sometimes be a good hurt.
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Synesthi In reply to tinkertype [2014-06-13 06:00:40 +0000 UTC]
It's an important hurt. As someone currently battling depression and Generalized Anxiety Disorder, it's important that it's acknowledged.
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tinkertype In reply to Synesthi [2014-06-13 06:18:13 +0000 UTC]
Agreed. I think one of the most frustrating things is how people try to gloss it over, like they can take scissors and sort of make a cut-out of who they think you should be and nothing else will fit into the frame. Out of sight, out of mind, and suddenly, Thanksgiving dinner is saved by a bit of mental reshuffling.
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Synesthi In reply to tinkertype [2014-06-15 03:28:45 +0000 UTC]
I hate that! Getting diagnosed with my Generalized Anxiety Disorder was a mess. People would say "Oh, no, you don't have an anxiety issue. You've always been like that!" and it was really frustrating to try to explain that yes, that's true, but that doesn't mean it's okay.
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tinkertype In reply to Synesthi [2014-06-16 05:24:59 +0000 UTC]
Exactly! And that kind of response would make me doubt and hate myself for trying to get help for something I should've been able to handle on my own, which of course does the exact opposite of help and it would all become a vicious cycle. XD My family is still no help. Tell your dad you tried to kill yourself, does he call on weekends? No, months can go by without a word from that man. -shrugs- Like I said, they fit you into a neat frame because they can't/don't want to handle anything outside of it. Human nature, I do understand it, but it still chafes. ^^
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Synesthi In reply to tinkertype [2014-06-20 05:07:30 +0000 UTC]
It really does.
But the chafing means you're still moving along those edges. It means you're still there.
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wickedcurly In reply to ??? [2014-06-12 16:58:19 +0000 UTC]
oh my gosh this is lovely,
perfectly excecuted and the ending is on point.
What I really love that there is no perfect endingΒ
nor is this a depressing poem reeking with excessive sadness,
it just lays all it's cards on the table and that line
"Β "Winning's not the point,"
and I took my turn on the board.
"The point is to keep playing." "
is a bundle of perfect words, describing exactly what depression isΒ
and how to fight it.Β
bra-VO!
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tinkertype In reply to wickedcurly [2014-06-13 05:28:47 +0000 UTC]
Thank you so much! Gosh, I hardly know what to say. C: Thanks for the read, and the favorite, but thank you more for the lovely words. I just wrote down what was honest for me.
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Jallicus In reply to ??? [2014-06-11 21:28:36 +0000 UTC]
This is my first day on this website... This is the third poem i have read. This is exactly what i was hoping for. Thank You.
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tinkertype In reply to Jallicus [2014-06-11 21:46:20 +0000 UTC]
Well, I'm honored. C: Thank you very much for reading, I'm glad you liked it.
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OrangeHammerhead In reply to ??? [2014-06-11 01:02:48 +0000 UTC]
it's beautiful! it even gave me goosebumps. BRAVO Β
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tinkertype In reply to OrangeHammerhead [2014-06-11 05:00:33 +0000 UTC]
Thank you very much, I'm glad you liked it. C:
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Lady-Crimson In reply to ??? [2014-06-10 20:42:33 +0000 UTC]
I wanted to leave you a comment, but this is how it turned out:
lady-crimson.deviantart.com/arβ¦
I hope you approve. If not, tell me and I shall edit or delete it according to your wishes. But please at least read that message from me to you!
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tinkertype In reply to Lady-Crimson [2014-06-11 04:22:38 +0000 UTC]
It was the best comment I have ever had on anything I have ever written. Thank you for that.
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Yilleo In reply to ??? [2014-06-10 20:22:46 +0000 UTC]
^^ It reminds me of how I personify Loneliness.
& it's probably not supposed to be funny, but I laughed when he said the part about old dogs.
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tinkertype In reply to Yilleo [2014-06-10 20:53:44 +0000 UTC]
I'm going to be honest, but I think it's a little funny too. X3 Thanks for reading!
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ThePurpleKieen In reply to ??? [2014-06-10 20:20:18 +0000 UTC]
I tend to write poetry to get out of blocks, too. Hope it's working for you. Anyway, I really like the way this progresses into something almost hopeful, piece by piece. And sometimes that "maybe I'll get out of this" is the best you can manage. I especially like part 5, and 7 is very relateable, although also the hardest to do.
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tinkertype In reply to ThePurpleKieen [2014-06-10 20:53:06 +0000 UTC]
Thanks! I hadn't even noticed that I do it until a friend pointed that out to me. I hope it works.
And it may be sappy, but I like it best when poems can end positively and what's more, I hope that people's journey with Depression can too. It's not a single battle, for some people, it's their whole life and that's too long to be feel sad all the time.
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CelestialSymphony In reply to ??? [2014-06-10 20:09:04 +0000 UTC]
This is perhaps the most accurate depiction of depression I've ever come across; every single part hit home. He really is always there, a deceitfully non-threatening, almost companionable entity, isn't he?
Thank you for writing this, it was a beautiful read.
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tinkertype In reply to CelestialSymphony [2014-06-10 20:50:31 +0000 UTC]
Yes, he is, or at least that's been true of my experience. And I think he's closest to winning when his voice starts to sound like my own.
Thank you so much for reading, it means a lot to me that people can nod and say, 'Yes exactly right.' Not to be cliche, but it helps to not feel alone. C:
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CelestialSymphony In reply to tinkertype [2014-06-10 21:04:13 +0000 UTC]
I agree. The part that hit hardest for me is, arguably, the simplest one--when you look Depression in the eye, tell him that you know he's there, that you know what he's doing, that living together is a two-way road and you know him just as well as he knows you--because it's true. You can know every single thing about your enemy and what he does to you and how, but in the end, you're still powerless to the games he plays.
But, like you said, the point is to keep playing. Sure it's cliche, but: we may each fight our battles alone, but it really does help, knowing that there are others like us somewhere in the sky who always keep playing, one piece at a time.
I wish you the best of luck and strength in your battle.
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tinkertype In reply to CelestialSymphony [2014-06-11 04:08:03 +0000 UTC]
I keep reading your reply and I just want to hug you. In lieu of that (haven't figured out how to fit a hug into the usb port) I just want to say that I wish you the same, and I hope you know that happiness has to be found along the way, and I hope you do. I hope you find those happy moments floating in the wind, and I hope you leap for them because there is no other way. Keep fighting, keep smiling, and remember: the power is in the choice to keep going. <3
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CelestialSymphony In reply to tinkertype [2014-06-11 05:53:33 +0000 UTC]
I will tell you that this, right here, is one of those shards of happiness: speaking with a stranger, a passing person in the street whose name I don't know, because of the strength of solidarity bringing us together. There is no greater hope and joy than knowing that somewhere, somehow, there are people you can reach out to with compassion who will always reach back.
Let us both keep going, for as long as there is strength to be shared. <3
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Ch4rm3d In reply to ??? [2014-06-10 20:08:09 +0000 UTC]
This is a lovely piece.Β I usually don't like deviations i have to read.Β ^^
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tinkertype In reply to Ch4rm3d [2014-06-10 20:40:49 +0000 UTC]
Then I'm doubly honored. ^^ Thank you very much for reading.
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Ch4rm3d In reply to tinkertype [2014-06-10 20:41:53 +0000 UTC]
Feels like i'm reading about someone i know.Β ^^
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tinkertype In reply to Ch4rm3d [2014-06-10 21:33:34 +0000 UTC]
Well, I wish that person good luck, and great strength in their battle.
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WhisperingWillow19 In reply to ??? [2014-06-10 19:28:40 +0000 UTC]
This reminds me of someone...the personality of Depression that is. He's a friend, I suppose if you'd call him that, and he speaks in the same manner that your character does, and reacts in a similar manner as well. So similar that it's almost scary. Great poem by the way, and thank you so much for sharing it...I'm sure that we've all been there. I know that I have.
~Fang.
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tinkertype In reply to WhisperingWillow19 [2014-06-10 20:11:50 +0000 UTC]
Maybe we know each other. Maybe we work together and we'd never know it, or we sit next to each other in class. I dunno, ever been to Colorado? :3 Jusy kidding. This is... as true a representation of the voices in my head as I can make it. I'm very glad you liked it, and thank you for commenting. ^^
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WhisperingWillow19 In reply to tinkertype [2014-07-13 15:30:23 +0000 UTC]
Haha. I have been there a total of two times. Granted, I was in an airport waiting for my flights to change - I had one hell of a layover. If memory serves me, it was a 6 or 8 hour layover, but other than that I've not been to the Colorado area in quite some time. I travel a lot, so maybe one day. I know that I have family over there, so it would be worth a visit.
A half brother on my fathers side. I hear it's quite the place to be in regards to the scene rave genera of partying, but then again, I could be wrong. You're quite welcome. In all honesty, it's so beautiful, I've added it to my wall. (I have a wall in which I tack or hang my favorite artistic works, and it was so lovely, that I couldn't resist. I hope that you don't mind. XD). Β
Please keep writing, you have a gift with words, and it would be a shame to waste it.Β
Have fun, and I'll be on the look out for more of your work.Β
~Fang
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Lazuli23 In reply to ??? [2014-06-10 18:03:31 +0000 UTC]
I know Depression is a Dragon and it attakes you when you are at your weakest point. Its very well wridden. ^^
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