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"I'm going to care about you on purpose."

...in other words: kanamafu, 💥💥💥💥💥💥

pjsk has been very hard for me to get like. all that invested in literally at all aside from directly the actual rhythm game element itself as opposed to enjoying it as a Piece Of Media conveying its own story/ies. but. i did sit down not too long ago and watch the entirety of the main stories for L/N and N25 which promptly ruined me, namely the latter, hence... this. even before getting very far into the stories i already liked kanade and mafuyu was more of a like, "i dont know what your deal is but everything ive heard makes me afraid that once i do figure it out it is going to hurt me a lot," And Then It Did : ( which has certainly been fun to have on the brain. the writing for the story as a whole felt kind of lackluster and i didn't like the pacing, but at the same time it was quite easy to sympathize with each member if not empathize with them and the attachment to the characters is what pulled it through as so touching to me, and i think with trying to figure things out for and about mafuyu being such a central (but ofc not the only) force to the story, it makes her character in particular have an exceptionally strong pull, at least on me, as well. that, and i just find her situation the most relatable as horrible as that might be to say.

still, regardless of my own relatability, the specific dynamic between specifically her and kanade is what pulls at my heartstrings enough to unfortunately be Attached now, and as such, something like this composition has been eating at me for a week or two now til I finally took the time to put it on a canvas.

between never having drawn either before and the fact that i don't tend to draw characters in this angle much just in general, this one feels kinda messy and has actually kept me from posting it quite as immediately after finishing as I usually prefer to, because i'm still stuck on whether or not its actually turned out well at all. but more so i think im just glad to have actually sat down and stuck with a drawing for more than like half an hour before feeling jaded about it, especially with this being such a big step outside of my comfort zone i was able to push through anyways.

unsure of if i will draw them again any time soon, if at all, or any other pjsk character, but i do have a v specific idea for a project that would focus on L/N (which i actually started a few months ago and ultimately abandoned because it felt too ambitious for where im at orz), so.. maybe one day, but still certainly not the kinda media i am moved enough by to spend that much time on rn.

Description

"I'm going to care about you on purpose."

...in other words: kanamafu, 💥💥💥💥💥💥

pjsk has been very hard for me to get like. all that invested in literally at all aside from directly the actual rhythm game element itself as opposed to enjoying it as a Piece Of Media conveying its own story/ies. but. i did sit down not too long ago and watch the entirety of the main stories for L/N and N25 which promptly ruined me, namely the latter, hence... this. even before getting very far into the stories i already liked kanade and mafuyu was more of a like, "i dont know what your deal is but everything ive heard makes me afraid that once i do figure it out it is going to hurt me a lot," And Then It Did : ( which has certainly been fun to have on the brain. the writing for the story as a whole felt kind of lackluster and i didn't like the pacing, but at the same time it was quite easy to sympathize with each member if not empathize with them and the attachment to the characters is what pulled it through as so touching to me, and i think with trying to figure things out for and about mafuyu being such a central (but ofc not the only) force to the story, it makes her character in particular have an exceptionally strong pull, at least on me, as well. that, and i just find her situation the most relatable as horrible as that might be to say.

still, regardless of my own relatability, the specific dynamic between specifically her and kanade is what pulls at my heartstrings enough to unfortunately be Attached now, and as such, something like this composition has been eating at me for a week or two now til I finally took the time to put it on a canvas.

between never having drawn either before and the fact that i don't tend to draw characters in this angle much just in general, this one feels kinda messy and has actually kept me from posting it quite as immediately after finishing as I usually prefer to, because i'm still stuck on whether or not its actually turned out well at all. but more so i think im just glad to have actually sat down and stuck with a drawing for more than like half an hour before feeling jaded about it, especially with this being such a big step outside of my comfort zone i was able to push through anyways.

unsure of if i will draw them again any time soon, if at all, or any other pjsk character, but i do have a v specific idea for a project that would focus on L/N (which i actually started a few months ago and ultimately abandoned because it felt too ambitious for where im at orz), so.. maybe one day, but still certainly not the kinda media i am moved enough by to spend that much time on rn.