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My loneliness makes me little tonight
It shrinks my soul
Till I curl into a ball
And hold myself tight
Because I am little tonight
I feel like
The last child in the woods
Left to my own device
I'm so connected
With the internet and my phone
The world is so connected
That we've never been so alone

I spent 12 hours in a waiting room
Trying to draw a picture of you
But every time I had to start again
I left a blank space in your face
And then I started again
I spent 11 hours at the bottom of a swimming pool
Trying to convince myself I thought I was cool
And by the time you found me drowning out back
And you dived in to save me but I knew there was no turning back
I spent 10 hours singing to myself
Because in the silence I miss the sound
I am my only comfort from loneliness
When my own voice is the only one reaching out
I spent nine hours with my lips on your lips
You were trying to breathe life into me with a kiss
And every time you pressed down on my chest
I was thinking save me save me save me from this mess
And when my lungs finally collapsed
You said I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
I can't save you from yourself

Well a large percentage of people die on their backs these days
They can't use their legs because of their old age
If I am on my back when I die
Would you lay next to me and send me off into the night
And if I asked you to do so
Would you hold my hand and never let it go
Never let me go

I spent 8 hours trying to get to sleep
The weariness took me from my head to my feet
But my heart felt so empty
And my chest was so unbearably heavy
I just kept whispering
What's wrong with me?
I spent 7 hours crying over the pain the world has caused you
And I kept crying over how I could not help you
But I put on my brave face when I saw you
Walking around like I had my head in the clouds
Pretending the thought of you crying didn't break my heart straight to the ground
I spent 6 hours learning how to tie my shoes
But it was hard to focus away from thoughts of you
I subconsciously decided I never wanted to learn again
And I've forgotten everything from every class I've taken since then
I spent five hours staring at the map on my wall
Then began to feel trapped in the cages of it all
Because even if I memorized the name of every country
It wouldn't soften the blow of knowing
I'll never see the world with my own eyes
I'll never know what it feels like

I remember when I slept next to you
That morning when you opened your eyes
And I gasped before I even realized
Your eyes are less like lines
And more like a place where colors meet
And kiss each other on the cheeks

I spent 4 hours writing songs for you
Until I realized I would never be through
Words are not as pure and simple and true
As how I love you
I spent 3 hours reading fairy tales
About princess' who cut out their hearts
Just because they felt
And when the authors found out
They wept because that's not what the morals of their stories were supposed to be about
I spent 2 hours counting every star in the sky
And then I
Spent an hour feeling lonely tonight

Description
My loneliness makes me little tonight
It shrinks my soul
Till I curl into a ball
And hold myself tight
Because I am little tonight
I feel like
The last child in the woods
Left to my own device
I'm so connected
With the internet and my phone
The world is so connected
That we've never been so alone

I spent 12 hours in a waiting room
Trying to draw a picture of you
But every time I had to start again
I left a blank space in your face
And then I started again
I spent 11 hours at the bottom of a swimming pool
Trying to convince myself I thought I was cool
And by the time you found me drowning out back
And you dived in to save me but I knew there was no turning back
I spent 10 hours singing to myself
Because in the silence I miss the sound
I am my only comfort from loneliness
When my own voice is the only one reaching out
I spent nine hours with my lips on your lips
You were trying to breathe life into me with a kiss
And every time you pressed down on my chest
I was thinking save me save me save me from this mess
And when my lungs finally collapsed
You said I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
I can't save you from yourself

Well a large percentage of people die on their backs these days
They can't use their legs because of their old age
If I am on my back when I die
Would you lay next to me and send me off into the night
And if I asked you to do so
Would you hold my hand and never let it go
Never let me go

I spent 8 hours trying to get to sleep
The weariness took me from my head to my feet
But my heart felt so empty
And my chest was so unbearably heavy
I just kept whispering
What's wrong with me?
I spent 7 hours crying over the pain the world has caused you
And I kept crying over how I could not help you
But I put on my brave face when I saw you
Walking around like I had my head in the clouds
Pretending the thought of you crying didn't break my heart straight to the ground
I spent 6 hours learning how to tie my shoes
But it was hard to focus away from thoughts of you
I subconsciously decided I never wanted to learn again
And I've forgotten everything from every class I've taken since then
I spent five hours staring at the map on my wall
Then began to feel trapped in the cages of it all
Because even if I memorized the name of every country
It wouldn't soften the blow of knowing
I'll never see the world with my own eyes
I'll never know what it feels like

I remember when I slept next to you
That morning when you opened your eyes
And I gasped before I even realized
Your eyes are less like lines
And more like a place where colors meet
And kiss each other on the cheeks

I spent 4 hours writing songs for you
Until I realized I would never be through
Words are not as pure and simple and true
As how I love you
I spent 3 hours reading fairy tales
About princess' who cut out their hearts
Just because they felt
And when the authors found out
They wept because that's not what the morals of their stories were supposed to be about
I spent 2 hours counting every star in the sky
And then I
Spent an hour feeling lonely tonight