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Venji — DESPAIR work in progress
Published: 2007-12-21 01:46:50 +0000 UTC; Views: 437; Favourites: 9; Downloads: 2
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I wanted to show you guys this! ^ ^ I almost NEVER post my pencil sketches because in the end I always change things when i'm inking it.. But I LOVE this piece! I love how it worked out.I was watching some tv in the living room and I started drawing. But I felt very melancholic because these times show you what you have missed and that you have to keep on living.. And then I went to my room and started on this piece again and I watched this intense scene about a boy coming out to his father and I understood his emotions and I loved how it was shown..
Well.. It's just that I understand the feelings of Despair and Angst you feel when your young and in the closet, you don't want anyone to know and when you tell people you feel relieved..
When I first met Shin I never told her that I was gay because I just met her ahahah but after months of getting to know each other I really opened up to her and we had a very solid relationship we still do.. I never experienced this with anyone and I want to thank her
(so she gets a kitten for Xmas xD!)But what I wanted to say is..
coming out is hard and the despair and loneliness you feel are very intense and the fear 2. So I don't know what that had to do with a this, but that was what I was feeling when I made her..
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You know, marco-kun?
The more I play FFXII, the more I thought that it was a kind of game you could have been one of the character designers - especially for the Espers. That feeling got even harder when I defeated that Esper there in the mines.. What's his name again (carries a naked woman with him and has a fond for casting Death o__O ).. Dunno, but I really htink you should go into to character design in the gaming development, you should do just fine I think!
Your drawings always have stunning detail (and don't we all know the upcoming games with that PS3 are all gonna give use eyebleed due to beauty and detail overload? 
This one shows how you are developing; your characters really start to show REAL emotions; they are living creatures with feelings and express them in the moment you caught them in your drawing.
PS: if you aren't with Squeenix within five years I'll send Anima right after you, darling-chan. Got it?
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^^ I love that Esper! The design of that one rocks it looks so beautiful and haunting.
Thank you though for the comment ^.^ It really makes me want try more positions and expressions.
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Gooooooooodies!!! *squees*
hahaaaaa that would be fun 
the Esper is Zelan or something now, I think... Gave it to Balthier as an Esper 
And hey, sure don't hesitate trying out different poses and stuff, you'll only grow
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Zelera is the esper ^^ I gave that one to Penelo xD.. and the first one I gave to Ashe.. Mateus was for Fran ^.^
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ah I gave Penelo (ze is mijn kleine schatje x3 ) the fiery one. I've forgotten the names of all those Espers. I don't like them as much as I did in FF7 and FF10... Perhaps because they are weak? (compare them to Bahamut 
I think I gave Fran too Mateus... I THINK so.. Don't know 
And yeaaaaah we would glomp tha goodies!
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ahaha awesome ^.^
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awesome design! I admire the insane amount of detail
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=3 gracias! It was hard at the end xD It was late and my eyes got blurry.. 
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Exquisite details, as always. I love the headdress in this one- elegant, but a little simpler than the usual. :3 and as for coming out... XD I actually had my mother come out to me~ it was rather amusing. probably because I'd known about her and her lover for a very long time- near a decade- before she eventually told me. hahaha.. >>;
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@ first I wanted her to have some kind of mechanic headdress xD but this one suited her much better.
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Lol, it was so obvious to me! I thought she must know I knew already. :3 ah, childhood. anyway, all works out well enough, in the end... she decided to tell me when I told her, once, "I want to be friends with Amber, like you are friends with her." and promptly pointed to her partner, and she was all like.. "Um.. well.. I .." then she took me to lunch the next day and tried to come out to me. HAH. <33
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