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"Sometimes the tougher they are, the more they feel when they break."

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Getting a slight headache, Mavis placed her forehead and palms against the mirror, looking down at the ground. Everything was slowly coming back to her; accidentally meeting a thunder lizard that was too much for them to handle, having a lightning ball shot at her and getting hit, Traize trying to fight off the thing alone, Ira and Traize's uncle finally arriving and taking on the lizard and Ira abruptly dematerialize out of sight in an unusual manner. Her mind placing the pieces together; Ira's not here, her weapon which Ira's soul resides in wasn't here too....she can't even sense the contractor bond between the both of them...that's not normal, a contracted contractor is supposed to be able to sense the other always. "Unless......" She mumbled, there was the possibility, Ira did use a lot of his mana in that fight...maybe he really finally used it all up…..and his existence did rely on it…when it’s all gone he’s going to vanish....go out of existence…..forever, grinding her teeth the more she thought about it, "Why are you even thinking about it like that!" Mavis growled to herself, why was she getting worked up at the thought of Ira disappearing for good, she knew it was coming and all these signs point to that, she was supposed to be prepared for that…but why was she feeling this way…still feeling angry....afraid……lost. She was pushing against the mirror so much that it cracked.

Silence, there was no answer to her question, the whole room was silent except for the sound of leaves rustling outside the window now and then. "There must be explanation to this……..Ira can't just......" She choked, the words wouldn't come out from her mouth, instead tears started to stream down her face. For once in the many years since she met Ira, she was truly lost and alone. Not knowing where he was, not getting a hint or a hunch if he was still on this world, alive, dead or anything.....nothing......It was the same thing with her parents all over again, she felt this way before but meeting Ira made it all better, it was like being in a dream. Was this her wake up call, that slap back to how fragile reality can be, she didn’t want to think about it anymore, Mavis just covered her eyes with her hand before leaning against the wall and huddled up on the ground. How long has it been since she forbid herself to cry like this, to let this emotion show on the surface. “Weak…..” She muttered between sobs “Weak……. Weak….. Weak…..” She kept repeating the word in an attempt to taunt herself out from crying and pull herself together, but it didn’t work, she couldn’t stop crying, the tears wouldn’t stop falling.

She didn’t like this feeling inside her, she hated it; It reminded her just how vulnerable she actually is at the thought of losing people she considers family.....and she knew she couldn’t deny any of it either.

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Just drawing a scene from an rp some time ago, finally got around to finishing it. And it also looks like part of that line of depressive pics in the group just now lol *gets hit*

8'D Yeah, Mavis might be a really tough shell to crack, but inside, she's has her insecurities too. Though she doesn't like people seeing it and normally would cover it up by acting tough or with violence, only certain people she is comfortable with would actually even see her breaking down like this.

And if you are wondering, don't worry Ira's fine after this and yeah it's after this incident Mavis got that huge scar on her side.

Mavis(c) Me

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"Sometimes the tougher they are, the more they feel when they break."

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Getting a slight headache, Mavis placed her forehead and palms against the mirror, looking down at the ground. Everything was slowly coming back to her; accidentally meeting a thunder lizard that was too much for them to handle, having a lightning ball shot at her and getting hit, Traize trying to fight off the thing alone, Ira and Traize's uncle finally arriving and taking on the lizard and Ira abruptly dematerialize out of sight in an unusual manner. Her mind placing the pieces together; Ira's not here, her weapon which Ira's soul resides in wasn't here too....she can't even sense the contractor bond between the both of them...that's not normal, a contracted contractor is supposed to be able to sense the other always. "Unless......" She mumbled, there was the possibility, Ira did use a lot of his mana in that fight...maybe he really finally used it all up…..and his existence did rely on it…when it’s all gone he’s going to vanish....go out of existence…..forever, grinding her teeth the more she thought about it, "Why are you even thinking about it like that!" Mavis growled to herself, why was she getting worked up at the thought of Ira disappearing for good, she knew it was coming and all these signs point to that, she was supposed to be prepared for that…but why was she feeling this way…still feeling angry....afraid……lost. She was pushing against the mirror so much that it cracked.

Silence, there was no answer to her question, the whole room was silent except for the sound of leaves rustling outside the window now and then. "There must be explanation to this……..Ira can't just......" She choked, the words wouldn't come out from her mouth, instead tears started to stream down her face. For once in the many years since she met Ira, she was truly lost and alone. Not knowing where he was, not getting a hint or a hunch if he was still on this world, alive, dead or anything.....nothing......It was the same thing with her parents all over again, she felt this way before but meeting Ira made it all better, it was like being in a dream. Was this her wake up call, that slap back to how fragile reality can be, she didn’t want to think about it anymore, Mavis just covered her eyes with her hand before leaning against the wall and huddled up on the ground. How long has it been since she forbid herself to cry like this, to let this emotion show on the surface. “Weak…..” She muttered between sobs “Weak……. Weak….. Weak…..” She kept repeating the word in an attempt to taunt herself out from crying and pull herself together, but it didn’t work, she couldn’t stop crying, the tears wouldn’t stop falling.

She didn’t like this feeling inside her, she hated it; It reminded her just how vulnerable she actually is at the thought of losing people she considers family.....and she knew she couldn’t deny any of it either.

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Just drawing a scene from an rp some time ago, finally got around to finishing it. And it also looks like part of that line of depressive pics in the group just now lol *gets hit*

8'D Yeah, Mavis might be a really tough shell to crack, but inside, she's has her insecurities too. Though she doesn't like people seeing it and normally would cover it up by acting tough or with violence, only certain people she is comfortable with would actually even see her breaking down like this.

And if you are wondering, don't worry Ira's fine after this and yeah it's after this incident Mavis got that huge scar on her side.

Mavis(c) Me