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Published: 2004-06-29 20:28:14 +0000 UTC; Views: 171; Favourites: 0; Downloads: 5
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Description I find it quite strange that I have lost something I have cherished for so long.
It came to pass so fast I didn’t have time to prepare.
As a leaf fell from my backyard’s grand oak tree,
I daydream.
I daydream about how wonderful life was before, or is that just a dream?
I now remember before how hard it was to look at my self in a mirror,
and still after such a traumatic and painful point in my life,
I could not seriously say I feel good about my self.
I am a the hardest critic on my self.
When I look into that mirror I see a strange person, someone I don’t recognize, at some point it was painful.
How I wish I had the great qualities I have heard others talk about when they look at another.
My eyes are tired of looking at such a sick person one who doesn’t grieve but humiliates her feelings.
Embarrassed about my own voice
I find my self sometimes
just sometimes.
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Comments: 7

LosTSuX91 [2004-07-04 18:02:55 +0000 UTC]

You seem to have very good English writing skills, yet in your comments to others, not to be rude, but well, they seem to be lacking. Is there a reason for this? Or do you just take your writings very seriously, and really go through and make sure that each grammatical error that may be present is corrected?


About what you have written~
I think it is a very emotional piece obviously, I get a feeling of new beginnings though. As though thier passing was somewhat of a step in your life. A realization. A coming of....life as it relates to death. You have very much writing skills. Good work.

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freeshell In reply to LosTSuX91 [2004-07-04 18:28:22 +0000 UTC]

~sorry
as for a new begining when my grandparents died..it was just a hard time for me in hs Life sucked family sucked and people in general sucked. Everyone goes through that stage, well it hit me all at once Wham! My life went from ok to screwed up! All i cared about was my sports and my so-called friends. A good thing was that I did not drown out my feelings with doing drugs or drinking...I have to say that before I really got into that stuff.. I met a person who changed my life forever. He and his family opened my eyes to a beautiful faith that my crazy messed up family never supported.

Life is beautiful when someone "beautiful" is in it.

~shelly

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freeshell In reply to LosTSuX91 [2004-07-04 18:18:33 +0000 UTC]

you hit it right on the nose! I am very carefull about my work and how it come out my bf always checks my work for me (so i have it double checked)! ..with my comments...I type too fast be careful....i am just a busy person... As for my writing skills, i have highschool grammor...and I am a terrible speller! I know I know haha
I think that when I start a poem I like to listen to classical music you know that music is just so powerful and it just takes my mind to another dimention, where I am mature/smart/relaxed and not my self. In real life I am yound and stressed. I work two jobs and I dont have a social life. Music/art/poetry are some of my passions when i am not swimming laps
Thanks for the comment..sorry to babble
~Shelly

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Vonawes [2004-06-30 15:01:47 +0000 UTC]

Wow. I share similar feeling towards myself. Nicely done.

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freeshell In reply to Vonawes [2004-07-01 01:14:40 +0000 UTC]

I am glad you read my poetry...that makes me VERY HAPPY!!!!!

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Vonawes In reply to freeshell [2004-07-01 02:16:53 +0000 UTC]

Awwww. Your poetry strikes a cord in me.

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freeshell In reply to Vonawes [2004-07-01 02:22:21 +0000 UTC]

eeeee...

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