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harlequinfool — -My- Existence by-nc-nd
Published: 2007-10-19 10:14:02 +0000 UTC; Views: 170; Favourites: 0; Downloads: 1
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Description My Existence.

I keep going forward,
Pushing the limits,
Never looking back.

I create a world where illusion is reality.
Because I can control what I want to happen,
I can control what I have,
I can control what I want.. to.. disappear.

Alone in shattering darkness.
Because I am afraid.
I do not deny that I fear.
Have you any idea what you have done to me?

You have never seen me cry.
You do not see my many scars.
You do not see the murder I have done.
To myself.

You think I'm rebellious.
That I never listen.
You think I don't know anything.
That I am clueless about the world.
You think everything I do is wrong.
That I don't know how to make decisions.

I shouldn't have existed.
My blood is sin in flesh.
A result of crime in action.
An excuse for day light robbery.

You had the decision to stop me coming.
A chance to stop a tragedy.
Yet I am here.
Now your responsibility.
That you have royally screwed.

So many things that I should know.
And I don't.
And you blame me.
Did you even bother to teach me?

So I seek knowledge on my own.
I find companions all alone.
All my decisions, always wrong.

My music brings down your house.
My attitude tests your patience.
My needs empty your wallet fast.
Am I really at wrong?

Do you not realize that I am alive?
Can you see me at all?
Are you listening to the words I never need have said?

So here I am.
Creating my own world.
Slowly destroying yours.
Wondering why you're not here.
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Comments: 11

Clytemnon [2007-10-20 14:16:05 +0000 UTC]

Creating my own world, slowly destroying yours

kfvelkfvh ♥ Love this line and many other ones!
Your poem is awesome, Harley-darling <3
And it's make me thinking about Graceful for some reasons O.o

+fav+

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harlequinfool In reply to Clytemnon [2007-10-20 14:28:20 +0000 UTC]

._. I thought Graceful had something like a little bit of me in her. That's one reason I like her. ^w^
♥ Thank you. For liking it and tell me. ^^ That way I know what i did right.

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z32 [2007-10-19 18:05:38 +0000 UTC]

I've felt something like that before, how sometimes you realize if everything disappears...everything would be fine... but still, there are good things in this strange world, or at least that's what I'm trying to convince myself

Loved the poem :3

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harlequinfool In reply to z32 [2007-10-20 08:44:22 +0000 UTC]

Thankies for the review/comment.owo

._. I'm not saying the world has no more good left it it or something, I know full well things can be a whole lot worse than now. When I was writing this, I was just so pissed at my caretakers sometime in 2006. xDD

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z32 In reply to harlequinfool [2007-10-20 15:44:51 +0000 UTC]

Awww I see I kinda asumed it was for someone like parents or family, but I'd could take care of you whenever you want! xD

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harlequinfool In reply to z32 [2007-10-20 21:29:32 +0000 UTC]

Haha.. I'll keep your words in mind even though I will not go and avalanche you with my thoughts and stuff. xDD

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stalker-in-training [2007-10-19 10:18:12 +0000 UTC]

I can control what I want.. to.. disappear. <--- I love the .. between the last three words, it's like you're so angry you can't even think straight and it's puncuated by anger.

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harlequinfool In reply to stalker-in-training [2007-10-19 10:19:36 +0000 UTC]

I am. The feeling being intense enough that tears are prickling behind my eyes.

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stalker-in-training In reply to harlequinfool [2007-10-19 10:27:52 +0000 UTC]

Are you feeling like angry crying now?

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harlequinfool In reply to stalker-in-training [2007-10-19 10:32:43 +0000 UTC]

[1] I love yours too. xDD

[2] ._. No, it's just the feeling in the poem. I'm calm right now.

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stalker-in-training In reply to harlequinfool [2007-10-19 10:27:40 +0000 UTC]

*huggle* I love your work..

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