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Depression (in Eight Parts)
Published: 2014-06-10 05:27:46 +0000 UTC; Views: 15252; Favourites: 787; Downloads: 0
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I.I took a walk once, and
Depression walked alongside me.
"I want to be alone," I told him.
"I know," he replied,
"Why do you think I'm here?"
II.
"I have a plan,"
Depression said to me.
"Not today," I said.
"I'm tired."
He frowned and asked,
"How did you know my plan?"
III.
I gave the weekend over to Depression
but he took three days
instead of two.
"Think of it as an investment," he said.
"And maybe I'll let you have a Friday night
without regrets."
IV.
Fallen to the floor
I look up and see
he's smiling at me.
"You know what they say
about old dogs."
He's doing this on purpose,
I know he is-
and it's working.
"They can't learn new tricks?"
I asked, playing my part.
"No," he replied,
"They die."
V.
I walked away,
my Trials and Tribulations
defeated behind me.
Depression followed,
but even he took a moment
and whistled low.
"I don't think much of you, but
those were some big guys."
I answered honestly:
"What were they,
compared to you?"
VI.
I looked Depression in the eye
staring without pardon or pause.
"Stop that," he said.
"Why," I asked,
"You nervous?"
He looked away
and said nothing.
VII.
Depression smiled at me
And I smiled back.
"You can't win,"
he told me.
"Winning's not the point,"
and I took my turn on the board.
"The point is to keep playing."
He laughed
but said nothing.
"Your move,"
I told him.
VIII.
I look beside me and see
that Depression and I
never once lost stride.
He's still here,
still with me.
"Who knows," he said.
"Maybe youβll grow old one day.
We'll sit on rocking chairs,
cursing one another,
still playing our little game."
He smiled, and maybe I did too.
"Better yet," I told him.
"Maybe you won't be around at all."
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wow that's.....really good i must say. I kind of expected that depression will won but it is amazing....and kind of creepy
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Some days he wins. Some days I win. The game resets every morning and the score goes back to zero. :3 Thanks for reading, I'm glad you liked it.
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I love the personification of depression, how he behaves and acts almost like a comforter, as well as a pain.Β
Also, I love in part IV, about old dogs. That is so cleverΒ
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That's exactly it - at least for me. No one wants to live in pain, but if you live with pain for so long, you wouldn't know who you were without it.
Thank you very much, and thanks for reading. :3
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So true!Β
Youre very welcome. Thank YOU for writing <3
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Wow, I am struggle with depression myself, but this made me feel really good. n_n
I'll remember this when I am feeling down again. n_n
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I'm glad this helped, then. C: Thank you for reading!
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Thank you for writing this. n_n
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You have been featured! 
Farewell!Well, its not an actuall farewell. Sorry for scaring you!
But there is some things that i will tell you! soo...uppdate!
Β I will be less here on dA, since i failed in math (with only one point!!) wich led me to start on a speciall line called "introductionline" for those who has not passed either "math", "english" or "swedish". And since i failed at math i will go there. My high grades in english and swedish obviously doesnt matter. *sighs*Β
And i have to study math atleast 2-3 hours per day so i canΒ do a big test in mathΒ in september and go to an ordinary school.
If i fail at ths i will get no education. And be sent to The Wall. So inΒ will need to study as much as i can, wich leedsΒ me to have not so much time with you lovely folks here on dA. *sighs*Β
Β I bought a new camera! A Fujifilm S3300! I love it!Β
also i have started to use more white in myΒ mani
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This is such an accurate description of depression. What a beautiful way to put it all!! I have long felt this way. Once my bitter adversary he has become somewhat of an old companion that I have an understanding with now. He has his nights, but I have beaten him and he knows it. Thank you for this ^_^
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I really like reading things in which inhumans/subjects/objects Β are personified.
I once read a piece of literature that had a DD mention, it was maybe 3 years ago. It was narrated in the third person, and the characters were simply you and the story itself. It fascinated me, yet I can't find it no matter how hard I search. I wish I could find it again somewhere on DA.
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I don't even have words to describe my feelings about it. But it strikes right to the heart. Thank you for writing this.
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Congratulations on your well-deserved DD!!!
Iβm very happy for you!!!
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A. MA. ZING. Truly incredible. The structure is awesome, and every stanza is bittersweet yet filled with an incredible wit. Great job, and congrats on the DD!
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I don't know much about depression or poetry, but I really like this piece. Its very well written. I have some close friends struggling through depression and this sounds about like what they're going through. Thanks for writing this piece, I think it would be very eye opening to those who don't struggle with it themselves.Β
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Holly ... this is so awesome, original and interesting! and true ofcourse...
i love how you made the whole thing light up in the end,Β
hats off! ^^
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(( I was diagnosed with depression two years ago.
I have often thought of ending it.
This piece gives me hope.))
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IV... I've never had clinical depression and even that hit me hard.
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That is a true compliment, then. Thank you.
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This really resonates with me, both because of the content and the style it's presented in. It's direct in a way that's very poetic, which I love. Thank you for writing it.
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Thank you.
Stunned, but yeah, I can relate - especially part V.
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I cannot remember if there was a singular moment when I realized that my Depression had somehow made me stronger, that though he remained my enemy, all others were less than he was. It's a trip, though, isn't it? C: And I don't know about you, but I struggled with that concept, I did because I thought it echoed the sentiments of people who said I was in love with my depression. I realized in time that I was, because why wouldn't I love every beautiful and scarred piece of me? Thanks for reading.
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All I can say is... I love it! I sometimes write similiar pieces myself (I once wrote a dialogue with my Lack of sleep 
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Thanks! I'm glad that you liked it.
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Depression is one of the little amount of things that I Hate
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That's a shame, because I believe that hatred is just negativity for negativity's sake. Why hate when you can strive to understand?We cannot condemn that which we uunderstand, and thus hatred would have even less of a foothold in your life.
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Maybe you're right.. But I had to get angry at it to fight it away. It was my way.. I stood and observed it, what I was doing to myself, and from seeking for the comfort of death, I got really angry at my own surrender; that gave me the strenght to get to watch fear in the face ready to endure at any possible punch (with this I mean searching for the root of pain, those things always deep-hurting and long "forgotten" or disguised). I don't hate depressed people, I just hate to be depressed and not comfronting whatever thing I have to... The state itself of depression.. the surrender of fighting, of living.
But you are right about many things. I've learned way too many things out of that, luckily I got determinated to truly take it out of me, that little moment of rage is the one I owe life to.
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I can realate to this on so many levels. Thanks for this.
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My gratitude for your thanks, and my sympathy for your empathy. <3 Good luck in your travels.
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Thank you for the kind words.
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They may be kind, but they are sincere.
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That's what really counts.
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Wow. That's amazing. The whole idea of personification on depression is actually a whole lot more complicated than death, which is what I usually do...Β
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I think it's human nature to personify elements of our lives that we wish to understand better. It's how we get things like Father Time, Mother Nature, or the Reaper. ^^ Thank you so much for reading, I'm glad you liked it.
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Whoa. I'm lost for words. I understand what this is like, and though small bouts of depression sprout up, I don't give it a chance to flourish as it did before. I told myself that I wouldn't allow depression to kick my ass anymore, and it doesn't. It's quite overpowering.
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The new territory is breathtaking isn't it? 
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Oh, most definitely. No words can describe!! Thank you very much, truly, I've never been told that before; too many people think of it as a phase when it really isn't and shouldn't be treated as such.Β
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this. i wish my doctor would read this. she's supposed to be treating people with depression for her life, but in all honesty, she has no idea what it really is. i never went to any school beyond the nine years i was forced to go, and i'm 26 years old. it's been a part of me my whole life, i don't remember a time that the empty hollow hole wouldn't've been plaguing and shadowing my happy moments somewhere in there. and they've been rare.. but i've learned to accept it. it's hard, but it's the only thing i can do. i only wish people would have more understanding at this subject, i'm so tired of hearing that i should force myself to do things, when it's the motivation needed to do anything that i have to fight for every day. the motivation to just keep breathing and trying to believe that even with all this, it's still worth living here.
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To understand someone you have to know what they've gone through. To truly help someone, however, sometimes it helps to see things from an outside perspective. -if you feel that your therapist isn't helping you never be afraid to say so. She's there to help you, to listen. I don't mean to presume, but I've known a couple of people who have stayed with unhelpful therapists and I thought it did more harm than good. And you're right, it's exhausting to hear the advice of people who don't know how difficult it is, so here it is from someone who knows: forcing yourself to do something healthy for you is a good thing. Happiness is a whole different goal, but contentment is just a habit and habits form because we do it over and over again.My therapist put it thusly: how I do things according to my Depression, it's like walking through the snow. You do it one day, then the next, and the next, when the next thing you know your footsteps have carved a path in the snow. It's easy to follow the paths we've already made, and it is hard to break up waist-high snow by picking a new path. So hard, so bone-breaking, breath-takingly hard... but if you do it often enough, you'll carve another path for yourself. Like I said, I don't mean to presume, and who am I to tell you it's easy? I still struggle with it. These are just some words that helped me, and I hope they help you in any way. Best of luck, and hugs to you.
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Depression you curse, he will be the new aids. Wait and see.
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No, because one is a mental illness and the other is a disease of the immune system. o_o
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That's kind of you to say. Thank you so much for reading.
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You're welcome. I showed it to a couple of my friends and they said it was very beautiful. I don't personally have depression, but a lot of my friends do. Like I said, they really enjoyed your poem.
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I'm glad. :3 It was nice of you to show it to your friends.
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