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muiltifandombish In reply to ??? [2024-10-26 22:41:49 +0000 UTC]

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Chrome401 In reply to ZoraTheTwilightDrake [2019-11-22 15:21:25 +0000 UTC]

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Meli3000 In reply to TheGameartist03 [2018-12-05 21:29:51 +0000 UTC]

I know right?! Usually it takes a lot to make me cry, but now there are Crocodile tears rolling down my eyes😭

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TheGameartist03 In reply to Meli3000 [2018-12-05 23:50:59 +0000 UTC]

now that i am actually capable of feeling emotion i'm scared to reread this page owo

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smeusel In reply to TheGameartist03 [2019-01-02 18:04:31 +0000 UTC]

Unfortunately, this only slightly revived my previously revived and recently re-killed sense of emotions.

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TheGameartist03 In reply to smeusel [2019-01-02 18:21:12 +0000 UTC]

Yeah I know how that goes.
trust me though, there's an end to it

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smeusel In reply to TheGameartist03 [2019-01-03 16:27:31 +0000 UTC]

Not for me. Multiple reasons. A) Genetically inherited mental illness basically prevents emotion. B) The one person who made me feel something broke up with me because she didn't want to ruin our friendship. C) Slightly psychopathic.

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TheGameartist03 In reply to smeusel [2019-01-03 17:44:35 +0000 UTC]

Oh. Well, it's entirely possible. Maybe it's not down the main road you're going right now, but I think you could still feel at some point.
And, I'm really sorry to hear that happened. I know how it can feel to lose the one person that actually makes you feel like something, and it can hurt more than anything. I'm sure she didn't want to hurt you, but she ended up doing it anyway. Maybe one day you two will get back together.
As for being slightly psychopathic, that's practically normal these days as far as I'm aware. Most people'd think it was cool. As long as nothing too bad happens, I wouldn't worry about it too much.
Either way, I wish you luck with all that and hope everything goes well. There's only one direction to go from rock bottom after all, right?

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smeusel In reply to TheGameartist03 [2019-01-04 17:03:17 +0000 UTC]

You are right when you say that losing that one person can hurt like hell, but the problem is that it just made me hide behind my lack of emotion even more. I'm barely even sad anymore, and I would've been worried about that if I could be. As for us getting back together, I'd like to think that I hope that happens, but let's be honest, hope is an emotion. Being slightly psychopathic is by no means normal, at least not by my definition of it. As for it being "cool," people who think that... Actually, I'm not sure what I meant to say. She would have understood. And as for rock bottom, it's a good thing I brought my drill. She would have loved that pun. I'll have to tell it to her sometime. Or not. It would be hard to bring up "rock bottom" without being suspicious. It would break her heart if she found out what's happened to me. 

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TheGameartist03 In reply to smeusel [2019-01-04 20:45:38 +0000 UTC]

I can understand some of what you're going through, and I feel bad for not really knowing what to say...
I didn't feel for a while and was believing I felt things and knowing how I should feel, and that consumed me to the point where I started freaking out. For some reason, I will probably never know why, I just happened to start feeling again after I screwed up on something. It's starting to fade a bit, but not all the way.
But clearly you deserve that more.
So if there's any way I can help, let me know
Pain without feeling pain is the worst thing there can be. Do what you feel is right. That's about all I can say...

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smeusel In reply to TheGameartist03 [2019-01-14 15:39:20 +0000 UTC]

Don't feel bad for not knowing what to say, after all, it doesn't bother me. How could it? That was a rhetorical, by the way. I apologize for making it seem like I was going through more than I was, but at the time of writing the messages, I was more emotionless than usual. To be honest, things are really looking up these days, my girlfriend is back with me, and my soul has a few stitches in it. But all the time, I can see the knife poised above them, and who knows what would happen if that terrible flashing blade were to descend. I appreciate all of your support, and I, in turn, offer you my support should you require it, although I doubt I would make the best therapist. As for "doing what I feel is right," need I even point out the flaw in that logic? I apologize for that, but I couldn't resist the chance of vicious sarcasm. It really is quite refreshing, my soul was about 1/1,000,000,000,000 more whole for a nanosecond there. You're a very kind and caring person, and I wish I could do more for you, but there's unfortunately nothing I can do. I'm sorry. But hey, let's not get too "depressed" about it, there's always the chance that things will get better? I estimate there's at least a one in nine hundred sixty-three trillion, four hundred eighty-one billion, seven hundred thirteen million, one hundred two thousand, six hundred seventy chance of me being spontaneously cured of my schizophrenia. 

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TheGameartist03 In reply to smeusel [2019-01-15 01:38:02 +0000 UTC]

Well, I'm definitely glad to hear things are looking up for you
And I understand about the whole in the moment thing, happens to me too all the time, haha
Thanks for wanting to help at least, just knowing someone cares can be more than enough.
I am more than confident things are only going to get better for you ^W^

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smeusel In reply to TheGameartist03 [2019-01-15 17:50:56 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for the vote of confidence, that's always a big help. I was wondering, although our conversation is at an end, if it would be too much to ask to continue our correspondence? I understand if your answer is no, but I do enjoy talking to you. Also, I hope you don't feel obligated to reply, or anything like that. Also, I was wondering if the sarcasm and humor in my last message was lost on you? It's okay if it was, but I like for people to get my jokes. If you want, I can explain them to you. But my first priority is to establish a lasting correspondence. What hobbies do you have? 

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TheGameartist03 In reply to smeusel [2019-01-16 01:05:10 +0000 UTC]

Oop yeah sorry I missed the jokes
And sure we can have a correspondence, I appreciate that you actually want to talk with me.
it is nice to have conversations with people again...
Well, when I'm not slaving away at a desk I usually like to write, play video games, read, or draw.
How about you?

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smeusel In reply to TheGameartist03 [2019-01-16 17:49:55 +0000 UTC]

I love to read, play video games, and sometimes write. I'm actually trying to write a book at the moment, it's coming along okay. I can't draw very well, but sometimes I'll try. The video games I usually play are things like minesweepers. 

Does it ever happen to you where you can't figure out what to say, so the conversation just dies? That happens to me a lot. 

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TheGameartist03 In reply to smeusel [2019-01-17 01:06:45 +0000 UTC]

Cool. Me too actually.
Man everyone is writing a book nowadays. Pretty crazy right?

Yup. Way too often.

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smeusel In reply to TheGameartist03 [2019-01-18 19:45:18 +0000 UTC]

What's yours about? Mine is a comedic story about the revitalization of a dying planet and the loss of an ego. I have a bit done, mostly dialogue, all dialogue to be honest. Ir\t works though. If you want to read it, I can send you the google docs. 

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TheGameartist03 In reply to smeusel [2019-01-19 21:42:39 +0000 UTC]

Sure! Sounds cool.
Mine is kinda like Toy Story in a sense? Started writing it YEARS ago and stopped when other stuff came up. It's about this little porcelain doll that gets left in a mansion after her owner accidentally leaves her there. Then, she and some friends of hers escape to go find her owner and adventuring through North Carolina ensues.
It's decently interesting at least. I always wanted to be the youngest person to publish a book, but, well, that's never going to happen, haha.

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smeusel In reply to TheGameartist03 [2019-01-21 14:27:04 +0000 UTC]

docs.google.com/document/d/1ur…
Thanks for the support, I think your book sounds really interesting! As for being the youngest person to write a book, I think you might already be too late, I think someone like, seventeen or something has already written a book, and then there's me, so better luck next time.

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TheGameartist03 In reply to smeusel [2019-01-26 00:55:33 +0000 UTC]

wait
SEVENTEEN
I COULD STILL DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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smeusel In reply to TheGameartist03 [2019-01-28 15:52:38 +0000 UTC]

Nice, but just so you know, even if you do it before me, then I'll be there and I'll break your record almost as it's being made. 

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TheGameartist03 In reply to smeusel [2019-01-30 01:11:52 +0000 UTC]

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Twilight-Glow3 In reply to TheGameartist03 [2018-10-05 17:15:31 +0000 UTC]

'sadness water' I love it!

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TheGameartist03 In reply to Twilight-Glow3 [2018-10-06 17:34:12 +0000 UTC]

lol thanks XD

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